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Unmasked_Identity
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July 8, 2012 6:39pm UTC

Hatred It's all I feel. I hate everyone around me. They're all perfectly happy people. I hate myself for being like this. I don't want to feel so helpless and alone. I've really been struggling lately. This is my secret account. I started it when I needed a way to vent without anyone I know finding out about how I really feel and what I do. I hate that I hate to hide everything from the people I'm supposed to love. I don't like that I hate everything about my life. I feel like I'm drowning. I just can't handle everything. It's too much sometimes. I think that's why I turned to cutting. It's a pain that I can control. It releases all of the mixed up emotions if only for a little while. The reason for these quotes is not attention. I just need to vent. This is helping me manage everything. I can just let out all of my feelings. I don't care if no one reads this and I thank the people who do. The support from the comments I've recieved has been helpful. It helps me keep going each day, even if that support is from total strangers. I really appreciate it and thank anyone who has commented on one of my quotes.I'm going to start making some quotes to help myself talk about why I started cutting, how I want to help myself, how I can help myself, what I'm most afraid of, etc. Hopefully they'll help. I think they might. This website has been sort of a savior since I made this account one month ago. I can vent and not have to worry about the people I know finding out about my problems. Thank you, Witty Profiles.

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Unmasked_Identity
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July 7, 2012 7:51pm UTC

1 month and 3 days... It has been exactly one month and three days since the last time I cut. It's been really hard. Since then, I've learned my best friend's perspective on people who cut and am now aware of the fact that I can never tell her the truth. She will have to keep believing my lies. I've kind of abandoned hope of ever getting help. I've thought about suicide more than usual this past month. I don't think I would ever get up the nerve to do anything more than cut, but I still think about it. I think about who my parents want me to be, who they think I am, and who I really am. They want me to be the perfect child. They think I'm the child that's a bit awkward (and I am) and the one that's the most imperfect. The one that is healthy and has no serious problems. In all reality, I think I may have depression, I've been cutting for a few years and sometimes I feel suicidal. There's also the fact that I may have bipolar disorder. Every day is a struggle for survival. I want to harm myself but I know I shouldn't. My most recent cut has a dark scar. The others are starting to fade, but they'll always be there. Everything is so hard. I don't know what to do...

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June 23, 2012 12:03am UTC

18 Days I've successfully made it 18 days without cutting. I am so proud of myself. I'm on track, but I still feel lost. I've been with my friends and I've had my fun, but I feel like I've lose my will. I feel like I've lost the will to live. I feel sad and empty. Normally this feeling goes away after a few hours or a day. It's been two or three days. I'm starting to get worried.

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Unmasked_Identity
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June 4, 2012 11:22pm UTC

I just broke my promise... I broke my promise to myself. 8 months ago, I promised myself I would stop cutting. It was the hardest thing I have ever done and I managed to go 8 months without cutting. That's the longest I have ever gone. Ever. I just broke that promise. For the first time in 8 months, I cut myself. I have never been this angry with myself. I want to stop. I just don't think I can. The pain has gotten worse and I don't want help. I don't want people to look at me like I'm crazy. I don't want people to tiptoe around me like I'm so fragile I could shatter at any second. I just want the pain to end. I'm going back to the dark place and I'm scared.

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June 4, 2012 7:16pm UTC

I don't want to go back I don't want to go back to that dark place. The pain, the suffering, the cuts, the blood, the lies. I don't want that back. I haven't cut in 8 MONTHS. That's the longest I have ever gone. I need to stay strong, but I don't think I can. My life is a living hell. I don't want to go back to the thoughts of suicide and how happy everyone would be without me. My sister has never been on my side. She's always against me. She used to hit me. She's never truly been a nice person. She doesn't know what nice is. And hey, maybe I don't either, but I know for sure that she isn't anything close to nice. She thinks of herself 24/7. She's constantly telling me everything wrong with myself. My mom always takes her side. I act like I'm happy when she comes home and everyone believes me. Even my friends, the closest people to me, they don't see through it. But that's only because I'm the best damn actress you will ever meet. I've got the blade in my hand and it's poised to slice across my skin. Maybe I'll do it, maybe I won't. I don't know. I don't know if I'll be okay. I don't think I ever was okay. I don't think I ever will be.

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