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i'm never good enough. ever.
hiiii. you can calll me Jenna. that is no where even close to my name. but this, this is my secret account. where i can vent, and not get judged, yelled at, made fun of, or lectured. why would i need a secret account? i cut. i starve myself. i cry, a lot. i've carved names, words, and numbers into myself. i've attempted suicide. i've been called: ugly. fat. hideous. worthless. stupid. dumb. annoying. weird. bitch. slut. hoe. whore. you name it. that's only one reason why i started doing all of those bad things. other reasons are: my parents hit me. i've been slapped across my face, spit on, gotten my hair pulled, thrown onto the ground, kicked, shoved, pushed, and one time, my own mother put her hand over my mouth, trying to shut out my screaming. trying to suffocate me. another reason is my ex boyfriend. i'm still in love with him, while he barely knows i exsist. one day when i was in sixth grade, he called me fat in front of the whole class. i've been starving myself ever since, trying to be everybody's idea of "perfect." fourth reason, is my family. no, it's not just my parents. my whole entire family gangs up on me. "why are you so fucking quiet?" or "why are you always so tired? wake up." or "you're so fucking weird." anything and everything they pick on me about. if only they knew silence is my loudest scream for help, and i'm always tired from crying myself to sleep at night. the last and final reason, being my friends. a lot of my friends do the same things as me. some know about what i go through, and others don't. this girl, who was basically my bestfriend, her name is, well, we'll call her Alyssa. she promised me she stopped doing all of those things. and she didn't. she lied to me. for months. and now, i'm alone. with no one to turn to. all i have is witty..
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the only person i hate, is myself.
now that you know all of the bad things, how about i tell you some things about me. it'll be stupid, but i need something to fill up this box(: well, i have brown eyes. long brown, extremely curly hair. i straighten it all of the time though. i'm short, but so is the rest of my family. i'm 13, and in seventh grade. i live in a small state, where everybody hates each other. i'm fat, in my opinion. others think i'm "skinny." hah. i do gymnastics, it's my passion. i love it more then anything. i'm a cheerleader. captain actually. it's okay, i guess. what else?..
hmmmm. i'm recently single. i have a lot of friends. only six people know about what i've done to myself. but out of those six, i only trust three. the other three found out on their own. out of those three, the one that knows the most, is Alyssa. the other is Morgan, my bestfriend. and Michael, my best guy friend. i have a real witty account also. i have a lot of top quotes, that i don't deserve. and well, that's about it. wanna know more? just ask(:
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