And then I found out how hard it is to
really change. Even hell can get comfy once
you’ve settled in. I just wanted the numb
inside me to leave. No matter how f/cked you
get, there's always hell when you come
back down. The funny thing is, all I ever wanted,
I already had. There's glimpes of heaven in
everything. In the friend that I have, the music
I make, the love that I feel. I just had to start again.