Do you ever have those nights where you're laying in bed and you're so
tired but you can't sleep because you're thinking too much? When you
can't keep your eyes open, but you can't keep them closed. Because of
something that happened that day; something somebody said, a song you
heard, and it reminds you of back then. Those nights you wish
that you could just go back because you miss the pain. You miss the fresh
blood. You miss hiding it. You miss the numb feeling it always gave you.
Then you remember why you stopped. Told yourself it was getting better,
when it wasn't, only made it worse. Wish you never told anyone. Wish
everything was the way it was when nodody knew you weren't okay.
Those night you wish you could just go back...