Get Real...
I can't believe I'm only just realizing this now...
I'm unpredictable.
I can be reaching sky high one moment and settling for mediocrity the next. I can work like a machine one minute, and be about as active as a dead fish the next.
I know what it takes to be successful. I've been working towards this my entire life.
I thought I'd sacrifice the fun stuff for now, like a social life...because you can't have it all. No pain, no gain. And I'd put up with a lot of pain.
I just thought, if I was able to excel in one area of my life, I'll make a difference in this world, everyone will listen to me, and respect my opinion, and I'll have a reason to be proud of myself. Everyone likes those confident, go-getter type people, right?
Did I really just expect to blossom into a social butterfly? Did I really think I'd be able to turn a blind eye to my crippling imperfections, and never have to deal with them? Was I really that naive?
The phrase "everything will work itself out, just give it time" should be banned.
I'm just not cut out for success. Because I can't commit.
And I'm not cut out for happiness either, because I don't understand it.
Glad that's all out.
~ this is not mine; I take no credit for it! Vie original @:
http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Dont-Know-Who-I-Am-Anymore/3253549
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