i'm fortunate to be
comfortable enough with myself that i don't fear being alone.
communication is important to me. it becomes important when you run
into the language barrier with your parents on a daily basis. when
expressing yourself is the most difficult thing to do.
miscommunication galore. only clear communication done through an
older sibling who has a better grasp of the other language.
they're the middleman gatekeeper to having a deep conversation
with my own parents. my trail of thought patched together with
english. having to use elaborate confused sentences to describe how
i'm doing. it's a whole headache. clear communication is
very important to me. i don't want to keep being misunderstood.
the idea of having no one to express my deepest thoughts and
feelings to scares me more than being alone ever