What is love? Why does the word make me hesitant, why do I chase what will never come to me.  

Don't look at what love is in movies, script writers make it appear perfect. Look at what God has written out for you and oh dear trust me it won't be peachy like movies.



What's love to you?
- Thinking about someone all day
- Surprising them, doing what you can to keep them happy
- Remembering the things they say to you
- Liking or even acting like you like those close to them
- Wanting to spend your time with them
- Wanting them around
- TELLING THEM YOU LOVE THEM & MEANING IT
- making sacrifices for them that you surprisingly thought you'd never make
- not calling it quits after your stupid fights / resolving fights ASAP
- Actually seeing a future with them, and not saying MAYBE it won't work out. That's like saying yeah I don't love you, I can see a future without you if stuff doesn't work out
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I don't seem to believe he loves me. How is that thinking lowly of him? It isn't. I feel distance when I'm with him sometimes. Signs are there that you have nothing there. Yes he was a nice guy, but this guy thought with his head more than his heart. Kind of makes you wonder what size his heart is. You've been super hurt in the past before, of course you're gonna be cautious. But you are a strong woman, you're amazing. You're capable of anything and you don't need to get hurt over and over again.

It's like he was sick of me anyways. He wants a pamela anyways. 

You'll always be more beautiful on the inside than out and I don't mind. I like making ppl smile anyways :)