I try really hard.
To be appreciative, supportive and positive.
But sometimes I need that too.
You don't see how much I do for you.
You don't see how much I try to make you happy and to keep
you happy.
And sometimes it never seems to be good enough for you.
I was so afraid to lose you but I was blind to realize I already
did.
You made a decision to end everythng you promised you'd
keep.
Yes, you told me it was a mistake and you want to make it up to
me.
But the mistake has already been made and my heart is already
broken.
Trying to mend it and put the pieces back togteher hurts me more
than anything.
I've never loved anyone as much as I love you.
But now it hurts to love you.
It physically hurts.
The fighting, the memory of that night, everything that
you're trying to fix hurts me.
I don't want to hurt anymore
I don't want to keep losing my trust in you.
But I can't control any of what I'm feeling.
I have to accept what happened and learn from it.
I have to accept losing you and learn from that too.
