I unconsciously touch my belly, Mention a new life, My legs turn jelly. Every once in a while My thoughts take a turn towards your non-existent smile, Wondering if you'd inherit, Your daddy's baby blues, Or my chocolate brown orbs, With a definite twinkle in those eyes... Wondering if you'd have those messy blonde hairs That your daddy bears Or my brunette locks That your father adores... Wondering if you'd be, like your father, olive skinned Which the sun has kissed Or like me, with milk-chocolate skin And your daddy's million dollar grin But fate took your life from you And you from me Leaving behind a string of shattered hearts Torn and broken apart With no one to soothe the pain That your lose has left to gain
Enveloped in Darkness I drown in Sadness The little ray of light I saw Has moved on The warmth gone I am chilling to the bone I let the numbness take over As I let my feelings down the sewer I know I am broken Far away from being repaired A heart heavy with grief But the pain is brief Even though it strives I don't let it live As I bury my emotions Deep down the Earth Never to be discovered As I am damaged beyond repair
I breathed in your scent, Even after you left, It remained. I played back those memories, Even though you left, They made up my misery. I remembered your kiss, Even if you left, Its what I miss. I still felt your touch, Even after you left, They still made my skin tingle much. Even though its you who left me, To rot and damage, It will always be you Who I'll miss, You Who I'll love
Damn its been hard Without you I’m afraid to tread Even poison seems like sweet bread Even breathing seems a tiresome task Long gone your warmth in which I used to bask Long gone your assuring voice which calmed all my tremors Long gone the soothing light of your eyes Which burned a hole through my heart Long gone your strong arms Which protected me from all those harms Long gone your shoulders Which soaked my tears as heavy as boulders Long gone that smile Which made me see stars Even less than a mile.
Me.... The darkness in the daylight My abode, the night I do nothing right Demon being the right word I am dark angel in thy world. You.... The ray of sunshine The light of divine Being to the perfection of white and pristine An angel from above Sent by Him with love... Then how can we be? Its either you or me. In a fight the protector and the destroyer Neither of our love for the other can be the survivor. It was dumb for me to even think That our love could win Coz in the battlefield I was made to kill the world And you were made to kill me for my blood.
I simply stood there, Watching from a distance. He still had seen me yet, And was obvious to my presence. I didn't have the courage to approach him, Coz facing him was one of my biggest fears. So, I hid in the shadows, Just staring at how he walked and gave everyone that heart stopping smile. I know I must have looked like a creep. But to me, it didn't matter, Coz, all I wanted to do was, Keeping on gazing at him And see that heart warming grin of his....
Holding onto the blade in my hand, My conciousness slips away like sand... Holding onto our last relation thread I start losing my breath... Holding onto the pain, I let myself slip in vain... Holding onto your memories I let me end in misery... Holding onto your smiles, I let myself get dragged away through distant miles... I feel the numbness, Ending my distress, As I watch my blood Become one with the mud.....
The wind was blowing over us, Cold and bone chilling... We stood there, Just staring at each other... The wind blew my hair, Covering a fraction of my face, Hiding my emotions from him. Neither of us moved, We just stood there, Challenging the other to speak first... Waiting to hear the other's voice. Our emotions hung in the air, Waiting to be confessed and then explode... Time passed slowly, And then we turned our backs to each other, Making our way in the opposite directions... And those words that needed to be spoken and heard, They just remained unsopken and unheard...
Every night I cry myself to sleep All the time I get I weep You hurt me so deep I still let the pain seep I feel my heart crack My body in sobs wrack I wanna feel your presence Your touch’s essence Your words mesmerizing me Your arms beside me Holding me close You were my drug An addiction I should have shrugged You caused nothing but pain And made me insane And now you left me alone To lick my wounds And with a lesson To trust no one around
We are far from miles Even though we are close Now its thorns Before it used to be a bed of rose Once; Between us; everything was shared And today; we don’t even care. Once; On seeing you; my heart missed a beat And now; love has taken a back seat. Once; You were everything to me, But now; You are nothing but a distant memory Once; I was nothing but happy And today; no word describes my life better than ‘crappy’ Once; You were my most prized possession And today; death seems more enticing an option Once; My life love seemed And today; My world in darkness deemed Once; You were the key to my happiness And now; you are the biggest reason for my sadness Once; I thought that it would be our happy ending, But today, I know our ending is a start to my new beginning
With every breath I take, I feel the heart break, Coursing through my veins, As in your words, my being drains. I feel every piece of my heart sink, As the guttural heartbreak I drink. Every ounce of my rationality ceases to think, As I become one of those who passes by in a blink. I turn around Continuing to go round and round Trying to relive each of your memory But just ending up in misery. Reliving each moment, I feel my shattered heart’s movement, As it thuds rapidly in my chest, Crying over the lost dreams of our future’s nest.
A single smile, A distance of a mile, A cascading tear, A dreadful fear, A dying hope, A fear to cope, A search for light, A losing fight, A beg for mercy, No show of curtsey, A bed of thorn, The fear gripping on, A feat to achieve, Long gone the trace of mischief, The innocence lost, The death; a host, A shallow breath, One last threat, The heart; a hollow, In self pity we wallow, A skipped heartbeat, A grim smile, facing defeat, The courage seeping, Loved ones weeping, A final farewell, In grief hearts dwell.
Me the fire Darkness my desire Touch me I’ll let my flames Burn you down to ashes On me you play your games And you’ll lose with burns and rashes My arrogance, my pride My ego’s on a high ride Red I see When anyone drowns me I roar and growl And win every brawl Mess with me And I’ll kill you enemy Coz I show no mercy
At times you make me wonder, If you did everything to just make me surrender, And let you have, A piece of my love, Which I never gave, To anyone or anything, Just kept it safe, In my heart, Afraid to lose it or get hurt, But you came along, Showed me you were truthful and strong, And would keep it safe and protect it from all wrong, But in the end, I just turned out to be, Someone who was to used and thrown away, Just like a discarded rag, On whom you claimed your rights to brag, Wthout caring about the turmoil I endured, As death was what I allured