Maybe it's a good thing I returned to this site when I did,
when it's basically stranded, nobody to be found, really. It
makes it easier to talk, easier to get out my emotions about how
much I absolutely DESPISE myself, because I feel like I'm just
talking to myself. I hated myself years ago, then I was fine for a
while. I'm finding my way back into that dark spot I was in
before and I'm scared. I don't know what to do, and I
can't help but hate everything about me. How I look, how I
talk, walk, act, how I'm not that smart, I'm not fun to be
around, people just generally don't want to be my friend. My
entire facking school knows that I hurt myself because somehow,
someone found out and spread that around to EVERYONE. Nobody wants
to talk to me because of it, everyone just feels awkward around me,
and I hate it. I just want to be happy. Sorry for anyone who
actually does see this, although it'll probably only be a few,
if any. Sorry to take up your time with this useless rant about the
major blemish on this happy facking earth that I have to call my
life.
Amenah · 9 years ago
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1. it may be quiet, but we are still here.
2. when i went through this, the best solution for me was to fix everything that was bothering me. it was to exercise and get in shape, read more and educate myself, throw myself into social situations that - at the time - i absolutely hated, but in the long run, taught me how to talk to people. be proactive and solve your own problems. at the end of it all, not only will you be hella proud of yourself, but you'll be able to stand tall and say "yeah. i did that. no-one helped me. i fixed myself."
3. (welcome back to witty!)