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Friday, November 14, my town lost ANOTHER boy to CO2
poisoning, on purpose. This boy, I knew very well. I cried a to
when I found out he killed himself. I'm miserable. He was one
of the people I happened to be close to. What sucks about all
this though is that everyone is blaming me. So, exactly two weeks
ago today, I was having a terrible day, and at the time, I was
messaging this boy. He had called me a sh^tty person for
something, I don't know what, but I ranted to him and said,
"How about you kill yourself then?" and I honest to God
regret that. But a few hours later, I apologized to him, and we
were okay again. He spoke to me every day and he was concerned
for my health and such. The last conversation I had with him was
Wednesday evening, when he told me he wanted to kill himself on
Thursday. I proceeded to beg him not to, because he meant so much
to me. He did. He still does. He knew I cared for him, and
everyone is calling me a wh^re, sl^t, b^tch, etc. And they are
all telling me I have an STD from him, cause yes, I will admit I
lost my card to this boy. I trusted him. I just wish he
would've said something on Friday morning, cause probably
just a conversation with him could've saved his life again.
If he had mentioned something, I would've ran out of the
school and to his house just to comfort him, considering he
didn't live too far from my school. I would just like to ask,
do you all think its my fault..? I know what I had said was
terrible, and I wish I had never told him that. I honestly do. I
have been receiving so much hate lately. Everyone hates me for
it. Like I'm even afraid to go to school cause I think
someone might hit me. So, I am going to tell you this. I honestly
am considering leaving the Earth. God takes away our angels, and
there is nothing we can do besides live with it. "That's
the thing about pain, it demands to be felt." ~TFIOS (Sorry,
I had to repost this)
