It's 6 a.m, she wakes up,
ready for school.
She smiles. She's moms little sunshine.
She is sitting in her class. She looks happy. But no one
knows that she thinks about suicide.
She laughs when the other kids are laughing.
She's alone in the school breaks, but she smiles.
When she comes home from school she spends time with her
family.
It seems that she's happy.
But when the night comes, she's all alone. She feels
numb, empty and lonely.
She's no longer smiling. She looks sad.
She looks in the mirror and then she breaks down.
She can't stand the way she looks. Ugly, fat, and
disgusting.
She can't stand her thoughts and feelings anymore she
hides everyday.
She's crying. She's laying in her bed and thinks
about her life.
She hates her life.
She wants to scream, she is in so much pain and no one
knows, but she can't.
She feels weak. The voices are telling her "You're
ugly, go starve you dumb fat cow. Cut yourself, you'll
feel better after cutting yourself. Kill youself, no one
needs you."
Then she took the blade and cuts herself.
She cuts until she feels dizzy.
Everywhere is blood. She wants to cut deeper until she
dies. How would it be to die?
It would be peaceful, she thought.
She's still crying until she falls asleep.
She dreams about suicide, the dreams in which she dies are
the best dreams she ever had. She wants her dreams to come
true.
And when she'll wake up the next day, she'll repeat
it all again.
She wants to die. She can't do this anymore.
And the worst part is,
she is me. -E.W
永久* · 1 decade ago
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Stay strong, you are beautiful in your own way <3