would it have been different?
If the person we were that day
didn't meet, would I be the same? Would I feel as badly
as I do? I'm not necessarily bitter, or remorseful, or
maybe even lingering over past emotions.
But I just wonder...would I be as guarded as I am now if you
didn't do the things you did, or say the same things you
said? You were the only person that made me feel so alive,
yet you were also the only person that's capable of
killing me. And you did. Sadly, you did.
I never would have expected you to, but you did. There's
a lot of things I wouldn't mind rewriting if I could. I
wouldn't mind going back to that one day and changing
everything all over again. But then again...
I wouldn't be the same person. I wouldn't know as
much as I do. The truth about forever, and promises, and all
those days constantly wishing for you, well...
I wouldn't have figured out any of that. So I don't
regret any of it. Even if I wanted to, I
couldn't.
