Girlfriend's Best Friend
CHAPTER 36
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I picked up Brooke but I was in no mood
to hang out. She got into my car and smiled brightly. Every
time I was in a bad mood I took it out on people who
didn’t deserve it, and I didn’t want that to happen
with Brooke right now. I kissed her to make everything seem
normal but I couldn’t bring myself to act like everything
was okay. I don’t know how Brooke managed to act like
everything was always perfect.
“Cody, what’s wrong?” she said
impatiently, sensing my obvious bad mood.
“Kelli and I are
fighting,” I said honestly.
“About what?”
“She thinks I’m
losing interest in her.”
“But you’re
not—”
“I am,” I said
quickly but had to stop myself before tears fell.
“I’m losing interest in her really fast and I
can’t cover it up anymore."
“Cody, but you have to.
That’s part of the plan,” she said nervously.
“How long am I going to
have to pretend I like her, Brooke?” I practically yelled
at her. I hated that I had to make Brooke think I was
pretending to like Kelli, but how could I tell her that I liked
both of them?
“For as long as you
want to be with me,” she fought back.
I didn’t know if I
wanted to be with her. Brooke’s brought me as much pain
as happiness. She screwed up my perfect relationship, she made
me fight with all my friends, and when people find out about
her, I’ll never lose my reputation as a player.
“Unless…you
don’t want to be with me,” she said slowly.
“Do you?”
I couldn’t believe she
was about to pull this. I just went through this with
Kelli—I was not about to do it again. It was rewarding
putting Kelli back together. But I think Brooke may be too
broken to fix. She wasn’t only broken, but poisonous too.
This is why no one could stay with her long. Because she was
too much to handle and only brought you down in the process of
keeping her up. I don’t know how Kelli’s done this
since fourth grade. I took a deep breath,
“Brooke—”
“If you don’t
want to keep this up then you don’t have to,” she
bit hard on her lip.
“Don’t try to
give me that sh.i.t, you know how much I like you, Brooke. I
wouldn’t have lied and cheated on Kelli for over a month
now if I didn’t like you. Do you have any idea how hard
this is on me?” Brooke had to realize that she’s
not the only one with problems.
“I know it’s hard
on you Cody, I never said it wasn’t! But she puts you
into a bad mood and then you take it out on me and that’s
not fair—”
"Take it out on you?? Brooke,
I treat you so well, don’t try to say I don’t! When
you’re crying or having a bad day or need someone to talk
to who is always there for you to listen and help? Me. So
don’t try to say I take out my bad moods on you when I
push them aside to make sure you’re okay!”
“What about the other half of
the time when you’re ignoring me or jumping to
conclusions about something you heard without asking me about
it first or barely talking to me when we’re together so I
end up feeling like I’m annoying you? Yeah you’ve
probably treated me the best but you’ve also treated me
the worst,” she yelled at me, but the worst part is that
I knew what she was saying wasn’t completely untrue.
“Sorry I get into bad moods
because I have two girls f.ucking with my head, both
questioning if I actually love them when to be completely
honest, I don’t know if I do! Sorry for having some bad
days Brooke, but you’ve obviously had
yours,” I ran my finger down my jawline, referencing the
scar of the line she cut into her own face when she
didn’t know how to handle what was going on.
She burst into tears right then,
but not from sadness—from complete anger. “You know
what, have fun with Kelli! I don’t care! Kelli’s a
f.ucking b.itch who’s only concerned about you and
herself, and you’re the biggest d.ick who deserves a
selfish b.itch like her. You think you’re so funny to
make fun of self-harm, well wasn’t that hilarious? You
and Kelli are so f.ucking obsessed with each other that you
can’t even begin to sympathize with other people’s
feelings because you’re too busy with your own. I hate
you, Cody. You realize I could ruin everything between you and
your ‘perfect girlfriend,’ right? I don’t
even like Kelli, I don’t want her to be my friend
anymore! I could tell her you’ve been hooking up with me
and you can kiss that relationship goodbye! I could ruin
everything!”
“You already
have!”
