@someone, 6:45 AM 5/26/18 ...I'm sorry for lying, even though I had promised before... I did think it was nothing, 'til afterwards I had told you the same lie I tell the other one. I promise i'll tell you next time I can. I'm sorry for not being honest. It was hard to tell if it were all genuine. I understand I can tell you anything and everything, more than I tell the other one theirselves. But for some reason, I felt it couldn't be said. It wouldn't have made sense. By the time I tell you, I hope to God you'll understand...
It's so strange how you can have the bestest and most amazing friends but you still can't quite tell them about the hurricane happening in your head because no matter how much you know they understand they still just don't?
Miluiel* posted a quote
August 16, 2015 10:02am EDT
k a t i e . . . one name, one girl, one passion princess, a crown of a thousands curls her toothy smile, her wild laugh--they could cure the nations friend and daugher and sister (i am most thankful for f r i e n d ) she is a wonder delicate eyes, soft and subtle - - i went crazy - - i need her - - still loved, still missed never lost here's to eighteen~
If You're Looking At Someone With Blue Eyes,You're Looking At An Ocean. If You're Looking At Someone With Green Eyes,You're Looking At A Forest. But,If You're Looking At Someone With Brown Eyes,You're Looking At A Nutella Jar.♥ You Love Them So Much ♥ ~Me With My Best Friend.
..... Dear Shayla, I miss you. I never thought for a second forever would come to an end. I just always knew there would be another conversation, another chance to say I love you.. I was for sure that tomorrow would always come. I never pictured life without you and it hurts to realize that another memory won't be created, another laugh won't be shared and another moment won't be made. It's like, how do I say goodbye to yesterday when everything I have to hold on to about you, lives there. And honestly waking up sometimes is bittersweet for me because everything seems normal until I open my eyes and realize it was just a dream. After you left, I lived in regret for so long; thinking I could have been there more, thinking I should have called more, thinking I should have prayed for you more. I think to myself a lot about why is it so easy to express how much you love somebody once their no longer here? Why didn't I make more of an effort to give you the roses while you can still smell them? These thoughts were killing me. Until I realized something.. Until I realized that this is how you would want to be remembered. This isn't how you'd want our relationship to be remembered. You were to much of a happy soul to want anybody to live in regret and grief forever. You wouldn't want a celebration of your life because you believed that death isn't the end. Before a saved soul is just the beginning. This is nothing but the eternal reward that we all seek. You'd want me to keep your legacy alive by giving the world something that you taught me. I hear you saying now, "Tori, it's not your job to understand God's plan but it is your job to trust it, even when it hurts to do so. And remember, blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted." Just thinking about that keeps me strong. Me doing something in your memory makes me feel closer to you than I ever felt. It's like I can see your presence. It's like you're more alive to me than you've ever been. Now those tears of sorrow are replaced with tears of joy. You taught me three things that I want people to hold on to once i'm gone. Number 1: Is John 3:16. Number 2: Is never live in regret but appreciation. Number 3: Don't pass away with me but keep what I believe alive through you. And I'll leave you with this.. You know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory. So leave to appreciate them all. .....
My best friend went away for 7 months. 7 months i didnt have anyone to truly tell all my secrets to. 7 months i felt lost. 7 months i missed him. 7 months later and hes still my best friend. 7 months later and we picked up right where we left off. 7 months later and im scared im going to wake up and he wont truly be back. 7 months.
Country_24 posted a quote
December 18, 2014 12:28pm EST
I hope you're dancing in the sky And I hope you're singing in the angels' choir I hope the angels know what they have I bet it's so nice up in heaven since you've arrived Now tell me, what do you do up in heaven? Are your days filled with love and light? Is there music? Is there art and invention? Tell me are you happy? Are you more alive? 'Cause here on earth it feels like everything good is missing since you left And here on earth everything's different There's an emptiness Oh-oh, I, I hope you're dancing in the sky And I hope you're singing in the the angels' choir And I hope the angels know what they have I bet it's so nice up in heaven since you've arrived Since you arrived ♥