I'm not okay (I promise).

Two days ago, I woke up to find news that crushed me. Crushed me into bits. At first, I laughed, first haughtily, then jokingly, then nervously. I thought it was a joke. Two days ago, I thought - I hoped I had woken up to a joke. I hadn't.
My Chemical Romance had broken up. A simple, five sentence, eighty-five word paragraph saying farewell had been the end to a twelve year legacy for so many people. Fans. Record producers. Band members.
I remember that morning. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't stomach any food. I couldn't believe it.

My Chemical Romance was
- is one of my favorite bands of all. I refuse to speak of them in past tense. They saved me. Saved me from myself, saved me from other people, from who I was becoming. They taught me not to be afraid. The men making the music were beautiful, as well. Their friendships and talents are an inspiration, even now. I cannot express their abilities into words fluent or worthy enough, so I will say this;

They are not a band. They may never be a band again. Music will not be made from the group of four, or in some past years, five, ever again. But what has already happened, what has already been made, music, videos, recordings of the past, will be remembered forever.

Wow, I'm speaking about them like they're dead. In a way, they are. They are no longer a whole, simply individuals. Broken, but not. In a way, we have all died a little too. My Chemical Romance was a part of some of us as much as them, and it always will be, but there's a gaping hole where the knowledge that they are still a group, still making music, still being an inspiration, should be. There's that little sliver of maybe, that maybe they'll come back under a different name, maybe there will be a side project, maybe the new album will be released anyway, but the emptiness of not knowing is probable to be everlasting.

I'm not ready to say good-bye. I don't want to. I'm barely able to, barely stable enough to type these words. But sadly, I know I have to.

In the words of Gerard himself, from his own good-bye,

"It's not just a band, it's an idea."

And I hope that idea lives on forever, and continues to save people as it saved me, and many others. I'm going to miss My Chemical Romance. I already do. But I will never, ever have to miss that idea.

The idea stays.

And so, farewell, My Chemical Romance,

So long, and goodnight.

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converse_girl17 · 1 decade ago
One of my best friends found out just today. Her sister told her at church. She started crying. I love my chemical romance. They are my voice, my heart. They are the voice of the voiceless. They helped me and my best friends. But they accomplished what they set out to. They will forever be in my heart<3
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
I CBA TO SCROLL DOWN THAT FAR
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
WOW UR LIKE THE LEAST LAZY PERSON IVE EVAR MET
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
OMF GI'M OSRRY
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
IST OAKY
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
SOMETIMES I SEE YOU RESPOND AND THEN I HAVE TO GET OFF COS I'M TOO LAZY TO HAVE A CONVERSATION IS THAT BAD
IT'S NOT BECAUSE I DON'T LOVE YOU COS I DO JUST
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
ITS OKAY I HATE HAVING TO RESPOND TOO SO I 5GIVE U
ID RATHER HAVE A TELEPATHIC CONNECTION THING GOING BUT THEN YOU AND REBECCABABECCA WOULD BE GOING OFF IN MY HEAD LIKE "WHEEE MY SH//IT TASTES LIKE THE TEARS OF JESUS" AND THAT WOULD BE BAD FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH SO ILL STICK TO REPLY MESSAGES ON WITTY
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
WHATTEH HWDCK WADRE TOIU EVEN TLAKING ABLOIT OMFG
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
IM SDPGO LKST WTGF IS GOINGY OIN ANYMOER
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♪♫Losτ Sταrs♫♪* · 1 decade ago
I'm not even a fan of the band and this is just the saddest thing ever. </3

It makes me think about how I would feel if Maroon 5 were to ever split up. I would be completely devastated.

I feel for you guys and I'm really sorry. :(
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
Thank-you. It means a lot. The entire MCRmy has received a lot of support, so thanks. It's terrible. But the music made, will always be there.
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♪♫Losτ Sταrs♫♪* · 1 decade ago
No problem. This is a bit random, but I like the fanbase name. MCRmy. It's cool. :3
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
Yeah, I think it's really clever.
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crazyMCRfangirl · 1 decade ago
I started crying again while reading this... This is a nightmare I can't believe they're gone
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
I want to punch the person who said it's an April Fool's joke. They can't just be gone. It sucks so bad ugh
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asianninjanerdsrule · 1 decade ago
I happened to feel a number of emotions running through my brain after I read this.
Devastation. Really? Great music with great themes gone completely to waste.
Anger. "Teenagers" was the first song I ever purchased on Itunes. I loved listening to it while imagining burning my Spanish teacher's house down. Now i can never listen to my favorite song the same way again.
Sadness. They were such an awesome, loved band for so long. It was a shame to throw it all away...
My Chemical Romance. God, I'll miss them.

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barakat* · 1 decade ago
Almost all the members live 30 minutes - 1 hour away, I should go bake them cookies and then lock them in a room until they agree to become a band again. They were amazing. Life-savers. Their goals were always obvious, no matter how much the media propagandized them. It won't be the same.
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MamaPanda · 1 decade ago
I'm Dying D:
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
I feel you bro<3
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skittlepringle · 1 decade ago
This might sound pathetic but... When I heard they split up, me and my friend Alli started crying .___.
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
It's not pathetic at all. I'm honestly still crying on/off. They were amazing. They deserve our tears, if that makes sense.
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skittlepringle · 1 decade ago
Why did they have to leave us?!?! What is my life?!?! D':
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
I've been listening to Black Parade (I think it fits best, considering MCR just died) all this time. It's so horrible. There's just a hole in me now.
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skittlepringle · 1 decade ago
I feel like crawling into a hole and just dying now.. .___.
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
You are cordially invited to join me in my hole of depression in tears. There might be a flash flood though. Jussayin.
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skittlepringle · 1 decade ago
I'd be more than happy to join you )': ....I don't care about floods.... I just wanna be in a hole
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
I can't even tell you how much fanart I've drawn in the past 2 days. I'm gonna back Frank cookies and bring them to him because he lives like an hour from me #njrepresent
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skittlepringle · 1 decade ago
O: I wanna see some of your work!! But Idk how XD
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
I have one on Instagram. It's not my best, but I can tag your username. It's more of a scribble sketch.
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
i sTILL CAN'T GRASP THE FACT THAT THEY'RE REALLY OVER
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
iS THIS LIFE
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
PLS NO

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barakat* · 1 decade ago
whYY
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
I CHATE NRYEEVERYTHING HEY CDID THYE LEVAVe
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
THER EWERE PORMISSE FR MCR5 AND TUOR WAT HAPPNEDE THEYER LAST FUUUKING SHOW WS 20 MNTS FROM MY HOUSE WHAT IS LYF
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
I CVDDON['t KNWO HWAT LIFE ID SBAOUT WNYMORE WID GNDONE I CNAAT
MCR5 WAD THEIR 5 LINES FOF BREKA IP
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
THYE LIDE OSMUHC WYNLDF
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
I DNATWFF EVEN NEVKNW OWHAT SVFOGOING ON
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
YWH R WE TPYING LIEK HTIS IDK THAW HAPENPING
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
COA QWEW EW TUSOPDIF
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
LDSL DKOW AWEF
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
MARK HOPPUS
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
HOW
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
MARK HOPPUS OMFG I'M CSCREAMING
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
MARK FLCIUNG HOPPUS OMG
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
I K N O W I ACNAT DTIP
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
I J U ST WHAHNFKFK
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
MARK
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
H O P P U S
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
BLINK 182
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
TWITTER
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
FOLLOW
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
BUTTON
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
OFFICIAL
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
REAL
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
FOPPUS
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
NARK
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Chlohoey · 1 decade ago
HSHARK
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
STARK
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RugsFromMeToYou · 1 decade ago
i do like MCR, but obvs not as much as you. after reading this i want to dig a hole, jump in, never get out and spend the rest of my life crying.
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
I am so sorry but they mean so much omg
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RugsFromMeToYou · 1 decade ago
and now im listening to them. i prob will be all night
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
its okay bro me too
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rebecca* · 1 decade ago
This made me really emotional oh my god

ps all my notifications got filled so I can't find our old conversations):
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
I'm sorry apparently everything I write terrifies/makes people cry but yeah oop

also it's okay I have like no notifications so I'd probably find them immediately #perksofbeingaloserwithnofollowers
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rebecca* · 1 decade ago
It's gOOD THOUGH omg

dude i usually have like 1 notification but my mcr quote was the top quote yesterday so like yee
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
yeea for you man
I get the majority of my notifications from talking to you and chLOE THOUGH IT SORT OF SAd

our intellectual conversations:
http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/6678238
http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/6677922
http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/5945949

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Wheeling · 1 decade ago
This just made me cry so hard. You have no idea.
But, all of this is the complete truth. You just spoke my mind.
'And though you're dead and gone
Believe me
Your memory will carry on<3'
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
I've been crying for two days now. I just can't believe this. They kept promising "MCR5" "new album" "another tour" and then BOOM, "we don't want to be a band anymore." I just feel lied to. They made such a change and I'm scared that others won't be able to experience that change, and just ugh it sucks I miss them
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Wheeling · 1 decade ago
I found out Friday night. I sat there and cried literally all night. I'm heartbroken without them.
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
I saw it Friday night but my brain wasn't working so I went right past it. Then I woke up Saturday morning to see the article open and I was like HOLY FUUUCK WHTA NO
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Wheeling · 1 decade ago
My best friend announced it to me and we both messaged each other for a while on how sad we were and I sat in the dark and cried. And in the morning I posted a fb status and my other friend commented and was like 'I love how you saw that almost right after it was posted' and i cried some more
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barakat* · 1 decade ago
It's just so horrible
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Wheeling · 1 decade ago
My heart has shattered into a million pieces
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