I didn't feel right.
I had never gotten this close to someone, other than my mom.
Then she just walked right out of my leife.
Why am I letting him do this?
I'm just distroying more of my life.
Trust is what ruined my life, and I'm trusting again.
I can't.
I can't get hurt again.
 All of this was going through my mind while he was kissing me.
"I take it back." I said, pulling away.
He laughed, "You take what back?"
"My I love you. I take it back. I don't. I wont." I said, shaking.
"Jadyn, I'm not like everyone else. You can trust me." he said, tucking a piece of my hair behind my ear.
I stood up quickly from the couch.
"No, I can't. Everybody is the same. They all walk out." I screamed.
Tears were streaming down my face, and my blood boiling.
My screaming must have woke Hannah up because she came waddling out of his room.
"Jadyn?" she said.
I just kept staring at Nate, because I couldn't face poor Hannah.
"Hannah, baby. Go back to bed." Nate said to her.
"Where is Jadyn going?" Hannah asked, noticing me walking to the door.
"I'm leaving.. I'm going home." I said, trying to force back my tears.
I opened the door and began to leave, when Hannah wrapped her arms around my legs.
"Don't go." she cried.
Nate grabbed her and pulled her off.
She was kicking and screaming.
"Baby, let her go. If she needs to go, let her." He whispered, holding her tight.
I wiped my tears, and walked out.
I walked to the apartment complex's parking lot, and checked my phone.
3 missed calls.
I called Justin back, "What?"
"Why'd you leave with Mr. Matthews?"
"Go away. I hate you." I said into the phone, and then hung up.
I walked back to my house, my dad either left, or was in bed, but I really didn't care anymore.
I went into the bathroom, and grabbed my razor.
I took out the razor blades, and made 3 perfect cuts.
The next morning was Monday.
When I woke up Monday morning, I made 5 more perfect cuts before getting dresssed.
I put on brown cowgirl boots, a brown flowery dress, and I grabbed my bag that matched.
I curled my hair, and did my makeup.
I made my way down the stairs to the living room where dad was sitting on the couch.
"I'm really sorry, Jadyn. About everything." he said.
"It's fine. I have school, we'll talk after. kay?" I asked.
"That's fine. Bye."
"Bye." I said, pushing past him.
I walked to school, and ignored everyone.
I walked to my locker, and ignored my ex best friends.
Then, I walked into Mr. Matthews class early and took my seat.
He looked up, when I walked in the room.
It was just us.
"Good Morning, Jadyn." he said, standing up.
I ignored him and walked to the back of the class room.
I took my seat and waited for class to end.
When the bell rang, everyione got up to leave
"Jadyn, stay after please." Mr. Matthews said.
I stayed in my seat.
"Jadyn." he said, walking up next to me.
"What?" I said, sternly.
"We need to talk." he stated.
"If this has nothing to do with school, I'll be leaving." I announced.
"go then." he said.
I did, I walked out, and straight to the girls bathroom.
I pulled out a blade, and made 4 more perfect cuts in front of the mirror.
Mrs. Bell walked in and saw what I was doing.
I stopped.