"I heard what you said to zach after you saw me this morning and honestly you need to get over me it's been 3 months since the last time we looked in eachothers direction let alone talk I'm not being mean I'm just saying you should move on I'm not worth your time and don't text me back because I'm not in the mood to talk nor do I want to I'm just saying you'll find someone you're 15 you have your whole life ahead of you it's not like you'll even remember me in ten years so you might as well forget about me now and find someone else bye."

That was the first text you have sent me in two months. It broke my heart. It's hard for me to admit that your already over me and I mean nothing to you. You were my first and I was yours too. We were inseperatable for the six months we were dating. We hungout everyday over the summer from eleven in the morning till twelve at night and for you to tell me to just get over you hurts me like no other pain I have expirienced. I fell head over heals in love with you I gave you everything you wanted and although some people may say we had a bad realtionship because we always faught it's just because they didn't really know our relationship. our relationship was amazing. through all our ups and downs we could never let go of eachother. the way you lowered your voice and called me baby when you were right about to tell me you loved me or how I got chills everytime you said my name will forever be burned into my heart. you were my first love my first serious boyfriend. my bestfriend, lover, baby, babe, and the only person i will ever call babes. the way I fit so perfect in your arms and the way you held me when I slept was so comforting. when you gave me your sweatshirt I slept in it everynight. How you said I could wear your class ring was so cute and how you shared your locker with me was so sweet. words can not explain how I felt and still feel about you. you made me so happy when I was so depressed. you were the only reason I got out of bed everymorning. You told me I was beautiful when I looked my worst. you blew off your friends for me to come and go to the park at night and look up at the stars and talk about our future. we argued about baby names and what we were going to do when we got older. we planned to go to las vegas this up coming summer together and then move out there when we were eighteen to be closer to your sister. we would sit in bed for hours every night and just cuddle and when I fell asleep you would tuck me in and you would kiss me to wake me up. every morning when i got to your house you would tell chris not to come till one so we could be alone and you would always make me lunch everyday. a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. it was the best I swear. I wont eat anyone elses. and that time you came over and you went and bought dough and we made home made pizza together and you got so excited because you had never made one before was so cute.  you helped me repaint my room and move it around, you helped me set up my tv and wii, you showed me what true love is. this is the last big letter I am writting about you because I have wrote so many. I cant keep loving someone who doesn't love me. I have a new boyfriend now. he is really nice. you know him and i think that you would be happy to know this. I will love you forever and I mean forever and I will never forget you. not till the day I die. Thomas I will love you forever and no matter what I will think about you everyday. I love you babes forever and always.