So I like this guy...
I wouldnt call him perfection. I
wouldnt call him even close to perfection. All these girls on witty
are talking about their "perfect" crushes, but i think
its a waste of time. He had said himslef that he is emo, but he
wears short-sleeved shirts, and I've never seen any scars. He
doesnt talk much, but he has his own sense of humor. Whenever I
talk to him, a smile as big as the sun and the moon spreads across
my face, and I cant stay mad at him for long. I get really upset
when he doesnt talk to me, and I bother him a lot. I wouldnt be
surprised if I dropped off the face of the Earth today, and he
wouldn't even notice a difference. I tease him non-stop. He is
my best friend. I've told him things I'm not brave enough
to tell my friends...the ones that he replaced, just like that.
I've known him for over a year now, and we talk a lot. He's
not just a guy best friend...he is one of my best friends.
We talk every day, whether its on facebook, or google+, or just in
school, and I never realized how much he meant to me, until just a
few weeks ago. Last year, my friend had a major crush on him, so I
had to talk to him every chance i could get, trying desperatley to
make him love her. Thats when I first realized I had major feelings
for him. I made a huge mistake...I pushed that feeling as far away
from my heart as I could, just because I didnt want anything to
start between my best friend and I. I kinda forgot about that
feeling for a while, and maybe a month ago, he and I were talking.
We tell each other almost everything, and I can get an answer from
him in a split second on almost any topic, but that one day, we
were talking about something really close to my heart. While I
pushed that feeling for him last year, I found another guy to take
up the empty crush space, and that new crush just happened to be
best friends with the guy. So we talked more. That night, we were
talking about the new crush, and somehow the topic turned around to
some of our deepest darkest fears. I was telling him things I dont
normally talk about, and he surprised me, too. He told me the
person he used to like, and he made me promise not to tell a soul.
That was how secret it was. He couldnt even tell it to his best
friend, so why was he telling me? I didnt know, but I asked who it
was, and it turned out to be one of my best friends. At first, I
didnt get that he was making me promise, so he said, "You have
to promise not to tell anyone..." and then he said my name. I
thought he was sayign that he liked me, and I got my hopes up...BIG
TIME. But then I realized that he was just saying my name to show
me that he was serious. My hopes jumped off a cliff and splattered
into bits and pieces. That night, he also told me that he would
never like someone until he had to get married. Since then,
I've gotten my friend to tell him that she thinks I
like him, and the reason why I dont want her to tell him that she
knows for sure is because I dont want our relationship to be
ruined. I love him. I know this is just a crush, and I know I sound
silly, talking like this will last forever, but I know him inside
and out, and he knows more about me than any other person on this
Earth.
...but what should I do about it?
So I like this guy... I wouldnt call him perfection. I wouldnt
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Oct 28, 2012 12:11am
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theglassbutterfly · 1 decade ago
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Tell him all of that, and how much he means to you. And tell him you understand he doesn't want to like anyone.. but that you'll wait:))