i
hate myself
its gotten really bad. i started
cutting myself, again, becuase after i told my friends about my
bulemia,they started spreading rumors that i was an
"anorexic freak" no one wants to talk to me anymore.
who can blame them, i mean who wants to be friends with the
girl sitting alone at lunch but cant even keep down a meal
without having to run for hours to burn of the calories. my
family? the're still denying that im sick and need
professional help. my teachers see me getting made fun of
everyday and they see me alone all the time, but do they help?
of course not. why would they? theyre human, humans dont like
wierd things. i used to do things on weekends, i had friends
that loved me, family that understood me, people that wanted to
be with me, even if we werent even doing anything. now? i just
sit at home, (alone), all day and try not to break down
anymore. my thighs and wrists are covered in scars, i cant hide
them anymore, everyone knows. no ones here for me, i have no
one, no one wants to be around the fat ugly insecure b/tch whos
scared of food? i can't take it anymore.
sorry its so blah. i had to get that out.
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XxXxPerfectlyImperfectXxXx · 1 decade ago
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I'm here for you! even if you dont know me. come talk to me. You're beautiful the way you are dear, dont hurt yourself. i know its not something you can just stop, but please promise me, youll try?