Finding
My
Way
Chapter 7: Ben's P.O.V
“Ben?” Jamie lightly knocked on
the door and walked into my bedroom.
“What is it Jay?” I
asked, picking my head up. I looked at my clock and saw it was
past 1 in the morning.
“Why are you still awake?”
“I had a bad dream again. Loretta was in it. I miss
her.” Her eyes were glossy and I sighed, patting my bed and
scooting over for her to join me. She rushed over as soon as I
did this and slid in beside me, holding onto me tightly.
“I’m sorry, Jay. I know you miss her, I do too.
It’ll be okay.” I soothed her, rubbing her back. I
felt so bad for her. My eight year old sister lost her best
friend only three months ago. She was so young and confused, it
was so unfair to her. I could never imagine how Valerie felt
every day. I would be lost without my little sister.
Jamie nodded and sniffled, snuggling into me as I settled back
down into bed.
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
I lightly sang the lyrics to Fix You by Coldplay to her, until
her breathing became steadied and she fell asleep. When I was
sure she was out, I stopped singing and just stared up at the
ceiling for a moment. Valerie deserved a lot more credit than she
got. I remembered hearing the whispers, “It’s
because of her sister; she’s been wacked ever
since,” at the preparation for auditions, and I
couldn’t believe people could be so ignorant. It’s
only been about three months since her little sister, her number
one fan, was kidnapped.
How does one even cope with that? I was seriously impressed with
how put-together she was. She carried herself so well and looked
as confident and happy as she always had when she walked through
the halls. But I knew she wasn’t okay. And I knew that
because of her meltdown in the hallway when she completely
snapped at me. That was when I realized that Valerie Anderson
totally hated me.
I didn’t know why, but it bothered me more than I thought
it should. Why should I care what she thought? We weren’t
friends anymore. Sometimes I missed her and the fun times we used
to have together, but we both moved on. I was sick and tired of
being teased about her. I used to have a crush on her when we
were younger and all of my friends made my life miserable for it.
I didn’t want it to ruin our friendship, and I knew they
were really close to telling her. That made me angry. I hated
being angry at my friends, and I blamed Valerie for coming in
between us, the same way that any stupid thirteen year old boy
would.
So I just started being a total jerk to her to try and get over
her. And it worked. I didn’t like Valerie anymore. But I
was sad we weren’t friends anymore. So I continued to be a
jerk to her. But now I felt bad. I felt terrible. She just lost
her inspiration for acting and all I’ve done is been a jerk
to her. I knew I owed her an explanation. But I wasn’t good
at apologizing.
I sighed and kissed Jamie’s head, closing my eyes and
drifting off to sleep.
Valerie’s P.O.V.
I lightly knocked on the door and after being pleasantly greeted
by Sharon, I made my way up to Ben’s room. I knocked on the
door, and didn’t hear an answer. I gently pushed the door
open and peeped my head inside.
“Oh, wow. Um, sorry.”
“Aly?” Ben broke away from the girl he was kissing
and looked over at me, confused.
I sighed. “Did you forget?” I asked, completely
ignoring his usage of my old nickname.
He looked lost for a moment and then realization dawned on his
face. “Oh, yeah I totally spaced! Sorry Val--”
“It’s okay, just go over your lines later and make
sure you know the first few scenes, we have our first rehearsal
tomorrow.” I reminded him.
“Hi Valerie.” Natalie said as got off of Ben and
helped him off of the couch.
“Hi Natalie.” I smiled at her. Natalie was in my
French class at school. She was always happy and really
sweet.
“Oh! I love your shoes!” She gushed.
I laughed and looked down to examine my tie-dye toms.
“Thanks. Sorry I interrupted. I’ll leave you guys to
it.” I smiled before turning around and walking back to my
house.
I was so angry. Not because Ben was kissing Natalie, but because
he totally blew me off. I thought he was changing. But he was
still a conceited jerk. I knew he wasn’t serious about the
play. I just wished that someone who really deserved the part and
would work hard for it had gotten to be Romeo. But I wasn’t
surprised. I was just waiting for Ben to screw up. I was right.
Ben Jackson was so predictable.
74 faves · 8 comments · Aug 3, 2012 12:10am
peeta07
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1 decade ago
omg just when I thought ben changed, BOOM, back to his old ways. Loved it! please keep notifying me!
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1 decade ago
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1 decade ago
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1 decade ago
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1 decade ago
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1 decade ago
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1 decade ago
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marebearj · 1 decade ago
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