I am not the person that I thought I was,

I've been hiding under a mask,

Of what I thought lose,

and depression was,

But really,

I was just scared of what I would find on the other side,

I've wasted my whole life,

Worrying about what he thought,

And I'm done,

Yes,

I still do like him,

But I don't want him to like me for some girl I wanted to be,

I want him to like me for me,

And if it doesn't work the way I thought,

Then at least I got one thing out of it,

Me,

One time I read this quote saying,

“Creative minds tend to be messy”

And that's exactly what I am,

Messy,

I'm just a kid,

So why do we always worry about our looks,

I know everyone hates it when adults call you a kid,

But I take it as a compliment,

Because it's true,

I am a kid,

So why am I so worried about a guy,

When all my purpose in life right now,

Is to live it.