Long, but I just need someone to tell this
to;
Summer is the time I feel the most
insecure. Swim suits, tank tops, short shorts. I actually starved
myself, for 1 whole month. I only drank water. I lost 20 ish
pounds, but in my mind, I was still the fat, ugly girl I was 20
pounds ago. And
keep in mind I was still cutting myself. Tomorrow, is my 4th year I
have been cutting. I want
to try and stop cutting, but I cant. Cutting is like, a second
nature to me. Pain is the only thing I have ever known. But, people
still dont inderstand, I do feel. I act and say "Oh, well
forget you. I'm my own person and I love that" But on the
inside im like "Oh, here goes another date with my
razor/knife" I've been cheated on, used, l i e d to by the
people I trust. And people S T I L L dont comprehend why I have
trust issues. I am so sorry for this huge vent, I just needed to
lose some steam. If you read this; Thank you. I love every single
last one of you. Gay, Straight, Bi sexual, Tall, Short, Overweight,
Skinny, Black, White, Asian, or anything else. I AM here for you. A
N D A L W A Y S W I L L B E <3
Long, but I just need someone to tell this to; Summer is the
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mishmishlovesu · 1 decade ago
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me and you have a lot in common. Same story. Except I gained about eight pounds back and I've stopped cutting because I can't anymore... If you needa talk then just hmu[: