My Name is Kinlee Jeanne
Cannon , i started cutting
on june 23rd. i was actually addicted. i kept it a secret until
i couldn't any longer.. i didn't tell people, they
figured it out. i still don't know how. but i successfully
kept it a secret for 3months. my mom wanted me on medication..
my counselor & dad wanted to send me to a place for people
with addictions. i cut, because my mom left one day out of
nowhere. she came into my room & said " i'm
leaving and i'm never coming back" .. i have 4other
siblings. and an amazing father. . my mom left my family for my
brothers' bestfriends' dad. she lives with him no,
their getting married..my parents aren't divorced yet..
i've never seen my parents fight, that night i did.. my
life was the closest thing to perfect. try being rejected by
your mom. and having to see her "step son" everyday
at school..knowing he has your mom, and you never will. i was
molested by my grandpa. my friend shot herself in may.. and my
other friend hung herself in october. i look
"perfect" no one even knows that i'm depressed.
but god knows (: he has helped me.. life is hard. but we all go
through stuff. you may think you have gone through stuff way
worse than anyone else.. but, we all go through stuff. it just
affects some harder than others. cutting was my bestfriend for
a long time. it was always there.. a short little time in
happiness. it made me feel better.. but i hated it. but at the
same time i felt like i needed it. my drug of choice, my sick
addiction. my mom came back a couple weeks ago. said she was
gonna try to make everything work. she PROMISED she would never
leave. she left, 5 days later.. while my dad was passed out
drunk on the bathroom floor. but,i called out to god. and i
threw away my razors last wednesday. why ? because i gave
everything to god. i'm not trying to find attention by
telling all of this. i'm just trying to get you guys to
see.. that sometimes, we go through things.. like pain, or
cutting. and they make us into the person we are today. so now,
i wear my scars proud. and i show people that i survived(:
i'm going to be a counselor when i'm older. so help
girls , who feel alone. . because i understand. and they need
to be loved. TWLOHA. Stop The Bleeding ♥
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