if you really knew me..
you'd know i tell other people amazing advice yet i cant take my own. you'd know even though my boyfriend split up with my 6 months ago I'm still not over him. you'd know that when i simply think of him or catch the colors in his eyes for a split second my heart stops. you'd know that i cry myself to sleep 99% of the time cause i held it in and pretend to be happy for far to long. you'd know my family problems which i couldn't even start to write here cause i wouldn't stop. you'd know what I'm thinking right now and why i cant put it into words. you'd know how much i look up to my best friend because oh how strong she is. you'd know that i could continue this for hours and still have plenty to write. you'd know i have a group of friends of 21 yet i only trust 3 of them. you'd know how much i am truly in love with that guy. you'd know how many 11:11's and candles i waste wishing on him. You'd know how much my heart is thumping right now afraid he will find this and know its me. You'd know that i Facebook stalk him and if he talks to another girl how another piece of my heart falls apart.
If you really knew me you would know how much harder its getting to keep that smile on my face.


- didnt think this would help but wow.
i hope you read this then write your own