Imagine living with someone for 22 years. Every day, not a
second apart. You have been with her through every moment she
has ever encountered. You have seen her at her best and at her
worst. You know everything about her and can usually predict
what she will do next. She is not only someone you want in your
life, but someone that you need. Of course you have your
friends but they really don’t know you like she does. She
can fix all of your problems and make you happier than anything
else on the planet. You are not yourself without her.
Sometimes, when something or someone new comes along, you tend
to forget about and ignore her. It makes her really upset
because she only has you and nobody else. And at the end of
each day, she is all you have too. You two have fought many
times about this and always seem to make up. But as
time goes on new, exciting people and things come along, and
the abandonment grows to become a habit. She tries to hold on
but you grow hostile towards her for trying to tell you what is
right all the time. You ignore her more and more until it seems
as though you really only spend minutes, if that, of quality
time together anymore. She becomes lonely and quiet and
doesn’t want to be around you much anymore either. Not
even when you need her the most. Your problems seem to add up
instead of disappear like they used to. You need her and she is
no longer there. Your life is empty and incomplete and you feel
like the most terrible thing that exists on this planet because
it is your fault that you forced her away. This is what it is
like to lose yourself. Once you lose you, you lose everything.
Don’t ever lose yourself.