I AM WHAT I AM AND WILL ALWAYS BE
Most of my life has been spent trying to shrink
myself. Trying to become smaller. Quieter. Less
sensitive. Less opinionated. Less needy.
Because I didn’t want to be a burden. I didn’t
want to be too much or push people away. I
wanted people to like me. I wanted to be cared
for and valued. I wanted to be wanted. So for
years, I sacrificed myself for the sake of making
other people happy. And for years, I suffered.
But I’m tired of suffering, and I’m done
shrinking. It’s not my job to change who I am in
order to become someone else’s idea of a
worthwhile human being. I am worthwhile. Not
because other people think I am, but because I
exist, and therefore I matter. My thoughts
matter. My feelings matter. My voice matters.
And with or without anyone’s permission or
approval, I will continue to be who I am and
speak my truth. Even if it makes people angry.
Even if it makes them uncomfortable. Even if
they choose to leave. I refuse to shrink. I
choose to take up space. I choose honor my
feelings. I choose to give myself permission to
get my needs met..