my confession?
I feel selfish. Everyday of my life I read something on here about how someone
cuts, or cries themselves to sleep, or even has family members die.
me? never lost a brother/sister, never cut, sleep quite soundly. but i still
torture myself.
i think i'm anorexic and i'm not even fat. i'm
just not as skinny as i would like to be. my best friend asks me why i do
it, because i've never been bullied or even called fat. but i have been destroyed
by myself, like it said in the other quote. that voice in your head tells you
that no matter what anyone else says about you, no matter how pretty they
make you feel, you ARE a fat pig and there's nothing you can do to change that.
i just hide it. i feel like i need to stop eating and just be skinny and fit
into a bikini and feel confident.
i feel selfish that even though i am pretty average and my best friend would
kill to have my life, i hurt myself. i just needed to admit that guilt to myself.
thank you if you read this.