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March 21, 2012 10:04pm UTC

What did I wake up to this morning?
Oh, you know. The usual.
Just a text saying:
"I wanna be with you until my last heartbeat. When I close my eyes, I see your beautiful face. When I die, you're the last person I want to see before I close my eyes for the last time. I could die a happy man"
♥
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March 11, 2012 8:32pm UTC

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Tears have come
and tears have gone.
My emotional torment still lives on.
The scars right here upon my wrist are what helped me get through all of this.

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March 9, 2012 5:27pm UTC

It's only the beginning
Chapter 5
Why couldn't I be happy? Happiness never stays long in my life. I was determined to be happy again, I missed smiling. It was hard because everywhere I went they were talking about Chris. School, home, work, the internet. I couldn't get away. I was going to survive. I was going to stay strong. I would be okay. Then I started talking to Cody. I've known him for awhile because he was friends with Cameron but I never really talked to him. We started talking everyday. I told him everything that has happened. This guy that I just started talking to..I completely vented to. And honestly, it felt really good. He understood me. He comforted me and made me feel better. We talked all the time, he became one of my bestfriends. I forgot what it was like to trust someone but now I can trust Cody. It was amazing because I knew he liked me too. He said "any time you need me, please, text me or call me. I don't care what time or anything. I don't want you to be alone. I'm here for you. I love you". Pretty deep, right? This kid is legit. I was going to survive this. Until...look who decided to show up. Cameron. He texted me "I'm really sorry for everything that I put you through. I've been a huge d*ck and you didn't deserve the sh*t I put you through. I really miss you....I miss what we had...I miss us. Please, give me another chance". What? No...this couldn't be happening. Why? Stop. No. I said "Cameron, I can't just forgive you and pretend like everything is okay because it's not. No". He wasn't very happy. I didn't care. He called me names. Yelled at me. Like I wasn't used to that by now. I know that I'm worthless so his words didn't hurt my feelings...they only made the cuts deeper.
*I tried to contain the past seven months into five chapters now that you guys are caught up, this is where I am in my life now. Crazy right? Thank you so much for reading this. It means so much knowing that you care. I love you all so much. Stay beautiful*
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March 9, 2012 8:11am UTC

You know, I fake it all so well,
that God himself can't tell.
What I mean and why my words are less than parallel
with my feat.
You ask my what I need and all I really need...
Is to breathe.

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March 9, 2012 8:04am UTC

forgeterr's signature format. Please don't remove credit. Or I will hunt you down. You do NOT want to get on my bad side.
Pretty pictures are on my arm,
pictures of days when I was
young.But these pictures are just
scars,the only thing that's ever
real...

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March 9, 2012 7:44am UTC

Better to inflict pain on myself than let other people do it.
♥♥♥

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March 8, 2012 7:53pm UTC

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March 7, 2012 1:47pm UTC

It's only the beginning
Chapter 3
It was night time again. That's when the pain comes back. During the day you get distracted by your friends and other things. But at night, when you're alone in your room. Everything comes back. The pain. The loneliness. I just wanted it all to end. And there it was, just sitting there. The blade that caused my wounds on the outside but healed the ones on the inside. Should I do it? No, I said I wouldn't. But what else was there to do? Who could I talk to about this? Nobody would understand. So I picked up the blade and...cut. God, I'm an idiot. Maybe there's another way. I grabbed a pen and paper and began to write. I wrote about the pain and depression, feeling alone. I just wrote and wrote. You'd be surprised how much it helped. I completely vented. I just wish someone could read it, to know how I feel. But no. I had to hide it. But I couldn't hide it for long. My mom found that note. She got scared. She made me go to therapy. I hated it. My therapist didn't help, she didn't care. I could've pulled out a gun and said I was going to kill myself and she would've pulled the trigger for me. I told them I was better. It was a lie. A good lie because they believed me. I had to get better at hiding it. They want to help but they can't. I'm alone in this. After months went by, I started feeling better. Then I met Chris. He changed everything. He was the most amazing guy that I have ever met. He was so talented, playing every instrument except the oboe and harp plus he was a singer. He said all the right things. He thought I was the most beautiful and amazing girl. He was perfect for me. Only one problem....the age difference. He was in his twenties and I'm only sixteen. We knew it was wrong, that's why he said he would wait for me. It was only eightteen months. I would wait forever for him. He loved me and I loved him. Everything was falling into place...then it began to fall apart again. Too good to be true? My exact thoughts.
*This is all completely true. Thankyou for listening! Stay beautiful"
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March 6, 2012 9:36pm UTC

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This girl is my best friend in the whole world. Not only is she the most beautiful and amazing girl ever, she's also my cousin. That way, I can never lose her. She has helped me through everything. I don't know what I'd do without her.
I love you, Kenna.
Everyone follow her because she's incredible <3
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March 6, 2012 1:48pm UTC

It's only the beginning
Chapter 2
I thought Cameron loved me. I guess I was wrong. I was so heartbroken. It wasn't because I lost Cameron. I didn't care about him anymore because he was a jerk. It was the thought that he was just using me...he didn't care about me at all. There's nothing more that I hate than a liar. It kills me. That's all he was...a liar. He told me he loved me and I was all he thought about. Yeah, thought about getting into my pants. I felt useless, lifeless. Like nobody loved me or cared about me. Nor ever would. So why was I here? If I was just going to be played, used, and lied to. I wasn't important to anyone. I felt stupid. Was this my fault? Why wasn't I good enough for him? I just wanted the pain to go away. I knew Mikey would cut. I was totally against it but he said it helped him. Maybe it would help me too. So I picked up a blade and pressed it against my skin...cut. Blood started dripping from my wrist. I started panicing. What did I just do? Why would I purposely injure myself? I'm an idiot. Stop the bleeding! I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my wrist. The bleeding stopped. I was so overwhelmed. I cried and cried until I eventually fell asleep. I promised myself I would never do it again. But I was wrong. It was only the beginning. The next morning, I felt so weak. I couldn't get out of bed. I finally got up, put on my makeup and my fake smile and off to school. Nobody knew what I did. Nobody could tell that behind my smile, there was a soul that was really hurting. I didn't want anyone to know. I was the girl that was always smiling. Who was friends with everyone. Always is laughing and joking around. Easy to talk to, good with advice. Nobody would expect me to be depressed. Maybe that's why I was so good at hiding it.
*I'm not encouraging anyone to cut. Please don't. It's a horrible addiction. Also, if you're feeling depressed, always talk to someone about it . You're all beautiful. Thankyou, loves*
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March 5, 2012 5:11pm UTC

Smile.
It's the best revenge.
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March 5, 2012 4:37pm UTC

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Hey witty.
I haven't been here for awhile and I highly doubt anyone has noticed.
I've been going through a lot lately.
My life honestly sucks. It's like a soap opera or a lifetime movie.
It's not normal.
If I get five faves, I'll start a series explaining my story. I need someone to listen. Believe me, it's quite interesting.
Just five, that's all I want.
Thanks Witty. I love you all.
♥
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January 16, 2012 9:16pm UTC

Hi. I've had a tough life. I'm not afraid to admit it. I've lost some people that I thought would be in my life forever. I'm not trying to get sympathy from you guys. I just want a friend that will listen. Is anyone willing to do that?

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January 16, 2012 8:56pm UTC

Why are all the quotes on Witty about "him" or being depressed?
Why can't we all just be like "I'M A GIRL. I AM HAPPY. I DON'T NEED A GUY."
This is why guys are always jerks to us. Because we are weak and we act like we need them.
WE DON'T.

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