Chapter 2. "love struck"
Jenny was someone I knew from elementary, we had been very close all through grade school, we started talking again my junior year. One night I went with her to a football game, and it was the first time in a while that I actually enjoyed myself. I met all of her friends. Jake and Alley were the perfect couple, you could see the love they had for each other in their eyes. It was unlike anything I'd ever seen before. Fredrick was extremely funny. He teased me a lot though, which apparently meant he thought I was cute? That still doesn't make sense to me. And then there was Adam. He came up to the group around halftime. Everything that I've read in a love story applies to this moment. I really just seen me and him. His smile blew me away. I couldn't speak when he was in my presence. I could just stare, and smile. He was by far the cutest guy I've ever seen, and I instantly felt something for him. As soon as he walked away, I asked Jenny who he was. I was so excited, until I seen a girl run up, and give him a hug. It was his girlfriend, and she was beautiful. My hope of the "fairy tale story" was over.
Jenny told me that that Monday at school Adam was asking questions about me, and he seemed to be very interested as to who I was. However, the only thought I had was that he had a girlfriend, so it wasn't right for me to feel such a huge attraction towards him. Until, one day he texted me, telling me that they had broke up. I felt horrible, because I felt like it was because of me, and that's not what I wanted, at all. However, we continued to talk, and he was my prince. I fell for him faster then anything in the world. Every time I seen him my knees got weak, and butterflies took over my stomach. I was love struck, there's no way around it.
One Friday night, after a football game, Adam, Jenny, Ally, Jake, Fredrick and I went back to Jakes house for a bonfire. We were all talking, and laughing when all of a sudden Adam grabbed my hand, and led me to the trampoline. It was so dark, I think I must have tripped like 5 times. Laying on the trampoline was very cold, and wet. However it didn't seem to matter to me at all. Just staring into his blue eyes, was amazing indeed. It was like they matched the starts above. One particular moment, I saw a shooting star fly across the sky. So, of course I made a wish. My wish was that me and Adam would be together, forever. Of course, I never told him that! Or else I wouldn't have come true!
Still staring into the sky, I felt him staring back at me. I laughed, and asked him what he was staring at. His only response was, "you, your just so beautiful." Just the way his voice sounded, as he said that slowly and ever so smoothly, made shivers shoot down my spine. This moment was one in which I wanted to relive forever. Everything got so quiet, but it wasn't awkward one bit. I couldn't help but to stare into his dark blue, mysterious eyes, just wondering what was going through his mind. Did he feel as I did? Could this be love?
Temptation, and anticipation built up, as the night went on, I found myself wanting to kiss Adam, just to see if our first kiss would be magical, like they always seemed to be in movies. I would never be the one to make the first move though, so I just sat there, letting my thoughts take control. Laying here with Adam, it was perfect. He was perfect. We laid for hours trying to figure out the constellations, however we both failed at it miserably. As both of us laugh, at the lack of ability we have in pointing out the large, and small dipper, he leaned over, pulling me closer to him. As nervous as I was, I played it off like a pro. I just looked at him, and I couldn't picture a moment any better then this one. He just looked at me, for what seemed like a life time, and then? He just, kissed me. It was smooth, and gentle. His lips touching mine made my body tremble, my heart stopped. I was sold at that moment, it was like it was sealing the deal on him taking my heart. Adam was every bit of my prince, and the only guy that I wanted, period. Me and Adam were now officially together, I was so happy, my wish came true! He made me feel so amazing. I knew that this was a turning point in my life. It was hard sometimes though, because he lived far from me. However, the days we got to spend together made up for the times spent apart. We we're always laughing, and having fun.Jenny always told me that me and Adam were meant for each other, that we were the living fairy tale. Which, in a sense was true. He saved me, and in some ways I saved him. We needed each other, we completed one another. Every time I laid in his arms, I felt so complete, so wanted. Every part of my body wanted him, I needed him. It was as if he became a part of my soul, I knew that I wouldn't be able to live with the same happiness if I were ever to lose him. I was such a skeptic on love, and true happiness with another person. But, he proved all of the pessimistic beliefs I had wrong. Adam showed me what it was like to feel important, to feel as if I was making a difference in someone's life. That alone just made me love him, so much more.
October seemed to be the month we had the most fun in. We had so many different things going on, it was just an exciting time. Being with Adam late at night was always my favorite thing to do. We'd always stay up late, watching movies, or just talking about our hopes and dreams. We always ended up wanting the same thing, and it just seemed like we were really meant to be. As crazy as it seems, Adam was the one for me. A lot of people objected to that belief of mine, because I was young, and haven't met that many people yet to decide such a thing, but it didn't matter who I met. Not to me, because no one could ever complete me in such a way that Adam Lee Williams did. He had my heart, and forever it would stay with him.
It was Halloween, and it's been two weeks sense I've seen Adam. I missed him terribly. I was sitting at Jennys house, and I was planning a surprise to go to Adams, and spend the day with him. The plan was almost in action, until I got a text message? It was from Adam. It read "I'm sorry Sarah, this just isn't working. I cant handle the distance and not seeing you. And not being able to see you today, it just made me realize that it's over." My heart fell out of my chest, I was instantly in tears. My surprise, it didn't matter. It was over. I don't think I've ever cried that much in my life. I felt like I lost a part of me, I did lose a part of me. I couldn't move, I couldn't breathe. I just wanted to hide, and be alone. If jenny wouldn't have been there, I honestly don't know what I would have done. I was broken, and I honestly didn't think there was any chance of me getting better. With Adam out of my life, I was very alone. Men in general were out of my life, I couldn't handle the site of couples, my heart was in so much pain. I just, I couldn't feel. I barely ate, I pushed my self away from the friends I did have. I just, I went of the deep end.
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