It seems like no matter what you do, or how many different things you try to avoid falling in love, it still always seems to happen. And when it does, it's scary... but amazing. You feel great about yourself, and the person you fell for. but what happens when they let you down? I'm crazy about this kid, and how well he "played the part" he seemed to be feeling the exact same way. However, i now come to find he's been completely lying about a lot of things. I just, i don't understand how someone can string along another person, and tell them all these great intentions that they have, and just.... let them down? just like that? like none of it mattered, ever.
Now, i deal with the pain, and the suffering of all the feelings i've had. They're all just... pointless now.
my tears? they don't matter.
i try to get my mind off of all these things, i just, i can't seem to.
i can't even stand to look at the pictures of him.
and the memories we've shared?
just to know that they all mean nothing more then a grain of sand.
it's impossible for me to get over this kid right away, i guess i don't have a choice.
but you see, none of this matters.
not even to me.
just as long as he's happy.
sammE