I lie awake at night, not just playing around on my computer like most girls, i lie awake thinking, thinking of everything.
every possible mistake
every word
every failure
everything i regret
everything i wish happened
everything i wish wasnt over
everything i wish i was.
The sad part is, that all these thoughts build up in my head, and soon i just sit there rocking, planning out my death, the death that i will bring to myself, to get out of this...painful, painful world.