I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I just need to vent,and if someone actually decides to read what I'm writing, I'll love you forever. <3
A few months ago, I liked this kid, Justin, who was in my biology class, and we flirted almost every day, when we were up doing our labs. I was too afraid to really do anything so I just lightly flirted with him. In about December or January, I got messaged on facebook by this kid, Jake, who I eventually started dating in March. While I was dating Jake, I hadn't really gotten over Justin and he was kinda there in the back of my mind. Oh, and Justin is also in my fitness class, too. Jake and I had been dating for about a month and a half and throughout the whole time he started to get really clingy and attached and emotional and stuff. He has anxiety and ADD so that doesn't really help much either. About 2 weeks ago Justin started to flirt with me again and being the bad person that I am, I flirted back. Feeling really bad about that, and also losing feelings for Jake too because of his clinginess, I broke up with Jake on Wednesday. I was sick Thursday so I didn't get to see either one of them and we also didn't have school in my county today so I'm going 4 days without seeing either of them. Since I overthink things a lot, I'm having a really hard time with all of this and I'm starting to re-build fellings for Jake but then I remember how clingy and annoying he was but then again I remember how sweet and adorable he was and how into me he was an it's just urg. I don't even know what to do. I decided about an hour ago to make a pro's and con's lift of both of them and this is what i came up with:
Jake:
PRO:
~sweet
~caring
~long hair
~lives close
CON:
~clingy
~emotional
~lovey
~can't joke
~stupid
~doesn't care about grades
~fragile.
Justin:
PRO:
~athletic
~strong
~funny
~sweet
~nice
~big, blue eyes
~long fippy hair
~smart
CON:
~don't know him very well other than his best friend is Lucas & he loves video games
~friends with Ryan (a kid I almost fought last year)
~don't have his number
And with that list, I saw that both is in Justin's favor. Pros are 4:8 and Cons are 7:3. I hate this so much. I just want to have the right thing for me handed to me because I feel like I can't talk to any of my friends about it cause Ifeel like they would get annoyed but whatever i dont know.
If anyone has any advice for me if you read this, i'd appreciate it. :) <3
meggers_97