Dear Mom,
I don't even know where to start. I love you and I really miss you. Things are changing and I'm trying in school. I'm taking online classes and trying out for the musical. You always said I could sing and it was the only thing that made you smile. I'm on the newspaper and the yearbook staff. The little ones still ask when you're coming back. I don't have the heart to tell them that it won't be for a long time because you messed up when you were in the Residential Treatment Facility. That you are now going back to prison.
You are missing out on your youngest daughter being in the homecoming court. She is 5 years old and is already being on the homecoming court. You have no idea how much we miss you. When I saw you on the other side of that glass dressed in orange it broke my heart. I still haven't given you a hug since the days before you went to jail. Its been almost a year. I still cry all the time and no one understands. Not from around here anyway.
You must still be sick, the addiction hasn't gone away for you. I pray for God's help all the time. I miss you so much. I don't understand why you decided that you got into the stuff you did. You got caught and were surprised that you are going back to prison. I really really miss you mommy. I miss your hugs and kisses goodnight. I miss your smile. You were always the most beautiful person I know. Your youngest is growing up looking more and more like you every day. It pains my heart and I hold onto her for dear life. She is like you so much and growing everyday.
I'm sorry things couldn't be better. I need you mom. I need you so much mommy.
Love,
Your Daughter