I'm actually a person who cares, listens, and helps people as much as I possibly can...and what do I get I get treated like I'm nothing like I don't even exist. It hurts just to let you know it hurts how people I know can careless about me and does absoluetly nothing. I always want to give up but I know I have to be strong for that one person that cares about me and I don't want to hurt them, I promise I would never hurt them and I don't break my promises. Please just hear me out I'm done trying to be someone I'm not I'm done hiding behind walls that are easily see through, I want someone, just one person to care about me to be by my side no matter what, I don't want to feel alone anymore, I've been alone and by myself my whole life. I never had a boyfriend. I never had a bestfriend growing up I don't know what it is like to call up a friend and chat with them for hours, I don't know how to talk to someone with out bringing up my past, and if I did I'm really sorry. I'm truly sorry if I ever hurt anyone of you if I made you made or just made you aggravated at me I truly am sorry. I have a huge and kind heart and I know I get taken advantage of and I am aware of that and I wish I can change that matter of fact I wish I can change a lot about my self but I can't because this is who I am and I need to love myself, I just don't it's really hard for me to think good things about myself when I never heard it growing up, and I rarely hear it now. Just to let you all know that I'm sorry and I love all of you. (p.s. sorry this is so long)