So i finally got over him. im done. CORRECTION: i WAS done. then he had to go and text me. he left me over a month ago because he "coulnt handle a relationship" and the next day he was in another one. but im over that. i finally stopped reading all our old text messages, i actually had a tiny crush on someone else for a bit there, but then he went and ruined it. after a month of no contact, he texted me, telling me that he still likes me and he never really got over me. he aked if we could meet up and talk, so i said yes. we went to the lake, and we walked around it. oh my god, he was gourgeous. i told him i wanted to be over him, because he hurt me so much before. that was true. but then he promised me he would never leave my side. i told him i didnt know if i could do this again, that i was afraid of getting hurt, and that im two years younger than him, and that he deserves someone his age, and then he kissed me. it wasnt untill later that i realized we were waling in the same place we shared our very first kiss, back when we were a couple a couple months ago. i dont even know why im writing this vent, but i dont know what to do. i told him i would make my decision by the end of the week, and i would LOVE some advice... please? okay heres a bit of information to those amazing people who decided to give me their advice and thought:
I'm in grade 7, but old for my age (im 14) he's in grade nine, also old for his age (almost 17) hes going off to high school next year, so we would be in diffrent schools. we went out for half a year at the besgginig of this school year, and then he broke my heart. i loved him. i still love him, i just dont know what to do anymore. ive been hurt too many times by too many guys so i dont know if i even want to take this chance, but he seems legit when he tells me he still likes me, and that he promises not to hurt me. but i have another thing. hes always talking about sexx. and im not ready for that yet. were both virgins, but he really wants to lose his virginity with me. im 100% positave that i dont want to, and he told me he would wait untill im ready, even if that takes a couple years, but i cant help feeling somehow that im letting him down, and that he would be happier with someone selse who could give him everything he wants. hes not some bad kid, hes respectufull to my parents, he never gets in trouble at school, he doesent drink, or do drugs, but i just dont know what to do. i know that im not over him. i still love him, but i dont know if its worth it. to those poeple who read this, and are kind enough to give me advice, thank you. so much, i love you all <3
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