my ex refuses to acknowledge
what he did to me. before he would
admit that he forced me to do things
I didn't want to do, and now he keeps
saying that I'm lying; that I wanted it.
his excuse used to be that I didn't
fight back "hard enough" or that he
just simply didn't hear me tell him
"stop" and "no" (over and over again.)
but now he says that it never happened,
that I asked for it, that I'm making it up,
and that I never said no, or even struggled.
I didn't want it, at any point. It's not like
I'm trying to get him arrested or anything,
I just want him to admit what he did,
mean it, and not change his story in
order to make him the victim.