It was a good day.
She was feeling confident,
happy,
normal.
She was getting along with her family,
She was joking around with her teammates,
She was even sincerely laughing.
Eventually her smile dropped,
and her eyes fell to the ground,
trying not to look anyone in the face,
or let any tears fall.
"What happend?"
Asked the girl next to her.
"Nothing, it just always happens like this."
"What?"
"It's just, right when I'm feeling perfectly fine,
someone always has to ruin it,
has to put me down,
make me feel worthless.
As if nothing I do is right,
and all my hardwork is bullsh*t."
But there's a twist.
The girl never asked her what happened,
She never even noticed she was upset,
All because she didn't drop her smile,
let her eyes fall to the ground,
or hold back any tears..
All becuase she became all too fimiliar with this feeling.
She became numb to herself.
She was hurting,
but hurting way too much to feel anything.
She kept that smile on her face,
and her eyes on her team,
and her tears back,
but only until she got home,
and was locked in her room.
Only then will she let out her emotions.
None of this would have happened,
If only society could look past a few extra pounds,
or a girl without a thigh gap,
or a girl who isn't completly caked in makeup,
for a workout nonetheless.
She would think she's ugly,
when in reality,
It's society that is ugly.
-JLS 7/30/13
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