what if i stopped caring?
but my silence seems to offend you.
i'm at the starting lines while you've already reached your flow state.
we're not the same.
you keep making me feel bad for tripping up.
i apologise and joke around with you.
you're always the same.
hot then cold, but always brutal.
i can't accept all of you.
i can't seem to keep you happy.
you're not impressed.
well okay, that one stung.
add it to the list of mistakes i've done.
it's hard cause i know you're right.
but you expect me to hit the ground running and i'm scared.
i hate disappointing people.
i tried to take it lightly but you still tried calling me out.
i can't be all go with the flow. 
i've made more errors than i can count, but haven't we all?
honestly. haven't we all?
keep keeping scores and keep telling me your not impressed.
all i regret was trying to flatter you.
never again. you can stroke your own ego.