Do humans
live for a long time? I have to put my trust in something that
lasts longer. I can't make you my happiness. There needs to
be another thing to hang around for. What if for the rest of my
life, the happiest moment of each day is when you come home? It
sounds special, but i fear that. What would i do if you
didn't come home? What if i outlive you? What would i do
then? If comfort is your arms and love is time spent with
you...then love and comfort will all end with you. It doesn't
have to end dramatically with death. What if you simply find
someone new. What if i'm not ready to let go? How would i get
you to stay? I'm insecure about a lot of things. You love me
a lot, but what if that changes. I like myself for the most part
too, i know i would live on for her. Family exist too, i
wouldn't allow myself to break down in front of them.
Realistically i know i would get through all of it. But i hope i
don't have to...despite it being inevitable. If your heart
never changes, then in a selfish way i hope you outlive me. I
won't have to know what it's like to be without you that
way. In a sadistic way, i want to outlive you. The thought of you
not being coddled for even for one day makes my heart
sad.
