I HAVE A
OVERWHELMING FEELING OR REGRET. IT'S DUE TO THE
REALIZATION THAT THE PEOPLE I AM FRIENDS WITH LACK
SUBSTANCE AND THAT THE WAY I HAVE TREATED PEOPLE WAS
PAINFUL. AND I KNOW IT WAS ALL MY FAULT. I HAD A CHOICE. I
CHOSE TO BE FRIENDS WITH THESE PEOPLE AND I CHOSE TO BE A
THORN. WHY COULDN'T I BE A ROSE? I DON'T WANT TO BE
VAIN. I DON'T WANT TO BE NARCISSISTIC. I DON'T WANT
TO BE LETHARGIC. I WANT TO OOZE PASSION, WITH EYES AS
BRIGHT AS THE SUN. I WANT TO BE A LEADER. I WANT TO
PHILOSOPHIZE. I WANT TO GAIN. I WANT MY THOUGHTS TO REACH
MOUNTAINS.
