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Hey there, stranger.
It's been a very long time, which I'm sure
you're aware of. I'd like to say it was your decision
alone to keep this distance, but I think we both know it was for
the best. I'd like to say that I'm glad you are
well, but as we both know I have absolutely no idea how you
are.
The one thing that can definitely be said is that when we cut
ties, we leave no strand behind, but slice right through
until we no longer remember how to find each other. It's
amazing to think that once we were inseperable, the best of
friends.
You knew me inside and out, and I, you.We were there
for each other in the best of times and through the most
difficult of times.We definitely managed to put each other
through hell on occasion, but when support was needed the most,
support was given. Until, of course, that final day.
I sometimes find myself wondering why we couldn't stay in
touch. Would it be so bad if we got together for coffee from time
to time? Or if we gave each other a ring to see how the other was
doing?
Using the phone to make calls has become archaic, but surely we
would send a text to wish each other a happy birthday? Or a happy
new year? I mean, we've been through so much. You are a part
of my life and there is nothing I can do to ever change
that.
You can't be forgotten because forgetting you would be like
forgetting myself, impossible. But then again, maybe you are
right. Maybe we are better off as far apart as possible.
We know we aren't right for each other. We know it would
never work, and we know the friendship we have-- we
had -- created a bond that would make slipping back into
romance too easy. It would make repeating the same mistakes
too likely, repeating the same heartbreak certain.
That's what it really comes down to: It's not my
heart that I'm worried about, but yours. Breaking my own
heart would be my responsibily to bear, but I can't once
again be responsible for breaking yours.
So all that I can do is wish you the best. Wish you a great,
bright, loving future. Wish you to find the lover of your
dreams and to create a lifetime of your fantasies. I wish for you
to find a friend as great as me, but a much better partner.
One who won't drag you through the mud. One who won't
feel the need to bury with guilt.
I wish you all the best and although you will never read this,
although we will never speak again, and although you are out of
my life forever, I wish nothing short of happiness.
Never again to be yours,
Your Lost Best Friend
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