Yes I am 17 years old. And yes I am terrified of dogs.
and NO I didn't choose to wake up one day and become absolutely
terrified of them. And yes it really hurts when you make fun of
me, mock me, call me names and yes film me when I am having my
little freak outs. Of all people I am totally aware my fear may
seem childish to you and I'm sorry. And you may be thinking but
Courtney don't you have a dog? Yes my family has a dog. And yes I
can be around her for the most part with no problem, but it
hasn't always been this way. When we first got here I SCREAMED
every time she barked (I still scream if she catches me off
guard). If she jumped I ran the other way. And I couldn't be left
alone with her. To this day the longest I ever ever been alone
with her is 15 minutes and yes I'm aware it's not that long. And
this is all I really feel comfortable with right now. I love my
dog to death and if she can't help it she scares me. She melts my
heart with her beautiful eyes and I'd do anything for her. But
when she dose certain things she scares me. YES I know some bozo
out there is like "well um you aren't really afraid of dogs if
you own one" Correction people have different variations of
fears. I can be around a select few of dogs and be fine but then
when I'm around others I'm not so fine. I can't explain why it's
just the way it is. I know some of you are asking yourself why
I'm putting this out there in the internet. Well 1: If I can help
someone and let them know they aren't alone then it's totally
worth it. I know what it feels like to feel alone 2: IM SO SICK
AND TIRED of being looked down upon and mocked and ridiculed for
my fear. (Especially by certain family members) I would do
ANYTHING to change it but I can't. If you have actually read all
this thank you :) something pushed me over the edge today and I
just needed to let it all go.
