mandy*
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9 years ago
If you're starting to go through an eating disorder, it's probably because you're having a self-confidence issue. You don't feel pretty enough, skinny enough, smart enough, or just perfect enough in general. I remember I was at such a low point of self esteem when I started making excuses not to eat and started making myself throw up any bad foods I ate.
One day I just got done sticking my finger down my throat and puked my guts out. I was on the bathroom floor crying. I just thought about it for a few moments and said "What the hell am I doing here on the ground, making myself feel even more worthless than I did before?" And I got up, looked in the mirror, and told myself I was beautiful. I told myself that I deserved better than the horrible things I was putting my body through. I started hanging out with people who made me feel better about myself, I started dressing in a way that made me feel better about myself, and I just started doing things to please myself rather than others.
Find a hobby, please. Find something that makes you feel good about yourself. Find a person who makes you feel good about yourself. You're perfect and you're beautiful and you're skinny and you deserve any food you want to eat. You don't have to starve yourself or make yourself throw up to feel beautiful - and I learned that first hand. Please talk to me if you ever need to. 1reply
mandy* · 9 years ago
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If you're starting to go through an eating disorder, it's probably because you're having a self-confidence issue. You don't feel pretty enough, skinny enough, smart enough, or just perfect enough in general. I remember I was at such a low point of self esteem when I started making excuses not to eat and started making myself throw up any bad foods I ate.
One day I just got done sticking my finger down my throat and puked my guts out. I was on the bathroom floor crying. I just thought about it for a few moments and said "What the hell am I doing here on the ground, making myself feel even more worthless than I did before?" And I got up, looked in the mirror, and told myself I was beautiful. I told myself that I deserved better than the horrible things I was putting my body through. I started hanging out with people who made me feel better about myself, I started dressing in a way that made me feel better about myself, and I just started doing things to please myself rather than others.
Find a hobby, please. Find something that makes you feel good about yourself. Find a person who makes you feel good about yourself. You're perfect and you're beautiful and you're skinny and you deserve any food you want to eat. You don't have to starve yourself or make yourself throw up to feel beautiful - and I learned that first hand. Please talk to me if you ever need to.