mandy* posted a quote
November 17, 2014 8:05pm UTC
Sometimes I wake up and almost believe that you are still here next to me. I think it's because I dream of you at night. Every morning since you left, I've grasped the empty sheets, looking for someone to hold onto...Needing someone to hold onto. You were my light. You were my f.ucking light, and now you're gone and I'm drowning in empty darkness and empty sheets and empty bottles of liquor. My chest feels empty too, ever since you left. It's like my tear-stained heart dragged itself right out of me, leaving me even emptier than I was before. I don't blame it - if I could drag my tear-stained soul out of my tear-stained body, I would. Maybe then I'd be able to breath and my mind would be clearer. And maybe then I wouldn't feel so f.ucking empty. a.m.f
I was babysitting a little boy today. He's 8 and I've been babysitting him for over a year now. Yesterday he told me "I remember a year ago you were different." I asked him "How so?" He responded with "You used to smile a lot. And your eyes would smile too. You smile sometimes now. Not as much, though. And your eyes don't smile anymore either." And I almost cried because someone finally understood me. An 8 year old noticed my depression that not even my parents or best friends noticed.
I've never understood fears. People always ask me "What are you afraid of?" And don't believe me when I respond, "Nothing." I've never understood why some are afraid of the dark, or why some can't watch horror movies. I've never understood why some are afraid of death. The reason I'm not afraid Is because I'd welcome death With open arms. I guess you'd have to be in my mind to understand, Although if you were in my mind, You'd probably welcome death too. A.M.F
Yesterday I went to Target to buy tampons and I accidentally ended up buying a bunch of other stuff. I went to checkout and saw my older brother's best friend working so I waved and went to his aisle completely forgetting about what I had bought. We're usually kind of flirty with each other so we talked while I waited. As he rung up the stuff I could see he got embarrassed while putting something in a bag. Remembering about the tampons I bought, I apologized for the awkwardness and we just laughed it off. That night he came over to hang out with my brother, but when I opened the door he also had a bag in his hand. "For you," he said as he handed it to me "These are just some things my sister told me you might like." I looked inside and it had a box of chocolate, some chinese takeout, and magazines. I'm not usually very happy when I'm on my period, but that definitely cheered me up.
I hope one day you give your heart to someone and they will hold it tight and protect it as if it's their own I hope one day you wake up and have something or someone to live for I hope one day you can go to bed smiling without a worry in the world I hope one day your demons are gone that the battle is over and you've won I hope one day you meet someone who makes you realize how beautiful you truly are
I was ordering at McDonald's and I noticed that the girl working the register had bandages along both of her wrists. I immediately knew what they were for. The girl had a bright smile, but her eyes were sad. I tried to find the words to tell the girl to stay strong and that people cared about her, but I couldn't will myself to say anything. *** A week later, I was watching the news and they were talking about a suicide in my town. The picture on the screen looked familiar, but I couldn't put my finger on the girl at first. Then I realized - the girl who committed suicide was the worker at McDonalds.
As a woman, you can't just let a guy call you a b*tch or a sl*t or a wh*re. You have to have respect for yourself, and make sure that guys have respect for you. If a guy doesn't treat you with respect then you have every right to leave him and you should walk away. I see so many girls who stick around guys who don't treat them right, and those girls owe it to themselves to find someone better. Boys are disrespectful, but real men treat girls the right way.
It seems like just yesterday we had our first kiss under the stars When in reality Yesterday ended in tears, when you said it was over. But darling, I can still feel the soft lips and taste your mint gum.