Relationships never seem to work out for me, and I
don't get why? I feel like I'm always the screw up,
but I don't think so on this last one. So it all
started when I was talking to this guy, Damyian, who
I've known since 4th grade, I even used
to go camping with him. Anyway, we started talking way back
late in April, and we were talking for about 8 weeks.
He seemed perfect, extremely gorgeous, funny, sweet,
caring, the whole nine yards. The flaw was, he was known as
a player. Everyone used to say it, that he would talk to
someone for 2 weeks then move one, even my parents said
they didn't trust him, and I thought so too, but I kept
all that deep down because I wasn't going to judge.
After around 6 weeks, he gave me his shop hoodie to wear to
school, so I did of course, (and it smelled fantastic might
I add). All the girls were telling me about his past flings
with girls and shame on me for talking to him. I, of
course, was upset at this and told him about everything
that people told me. He said that it was nothing and I was
stronger than them, and he only talked to 2 other girls
this year. I believed it, like the stupid person I was.
These past couple of weeks, I've been camping every
weekend, so we haven't been able to hang out during the
time we were talking, yet we've been texting nonstop.
Apparently, he didn't think it was enough. He texted me
last Thursday, (in the morning before school), saying that
he was sorry but he didn't think it was going to work
out since we never see each other and he was having family
problems. I replied basically saying that I wasn't
going to be camping for much longer and that maybe a
relationship will help him get his mind off of the family
problems, yet he didn't want to listen and all he said
was that he was sorry, he hoped I could forgive him, and he
still had a lot of feelings for me.
Well apparently that was all a lie. That same day, before
school started, he was walking around with a girl he used
to talk to before me, then it happened again the next day,
(Friday). I was so fed up with it, that I texted him this
long paragraph saying that I was sorry I wasn't good
enough, and he should have just told me he didn't want
me instead of lying straight to my face. He read it, but
never replied. So now, I have to give his hoodie back since
I still have it, and I don't know what to do. I feel
like either A. Burning it B. Leaving it in the middle of
the hallway or, C. Staining it and then giving it back to
him.
But apparently, my friend just told me this, he was going
to ask me out the day that he said he didn't want to
talk anymore. He was texting my friend Kim, two days
before, (Tuesday), saying he was going to ask me out
tomorrow, (Wednesday), when we were walking around together
in the morning. We did walk around, and he gave me a hug
and everything, but he didn't ask me out. So he told my
friend that he was going to do it tomorrow, (Thursday).
Well apparently not because I am single and now I am still
crying. He's stupid for doing this entire thing and
losing what could have been great, his new girl toy is
stupid for going after him, and I'm especially stupid
for not believing that he was a player and not staying
away.
If you had the time to read this, thank you for powering
through my long and boring vent, but I just had to get it
out. I don't know what to do anymore...
P.S- The guy that I used to talk to before Damyian,
(Tyler), texted me the same day that Damyian said he
didn't want to talk anymore, saying that he still cared
about me, (not in that way), and he never stopped caring. I
used to really like him, but then he kind of became
obsessive and he wouldn't stop trying to text me and he
isn't that great at keeping up a conversation, so I
basically lost my feelings for him, and we haven't
talked since. Well he's been really sweet and caring
about this whole situation and whenever he knew I was
crying about it he would call me and just talk to me to get
my mind off of the situation, and I don't know what to
think anymore. My best friend, Maegan, says that we'd
still be really cute if we made it work.
Any advice guys?