I'm done
Relationships never seem to work out for me, and I don't get why? I feel like I'm always the screw up, but I don't think so on this last one. So it all started when I was talking to this guy, Damyian, who I've known since 4th grade, I even used to go camping with him. Anyway, we started talking way back late in April, and we were talking for about 8 weeks.
He seemed perfect, extremely gorgeous, funny, sweet, caring, the whole nine yards. The flaw was, he was known as a player. Everyone used to say it, that he would talk to someone for 2 weeks then move one, even my parents said they didn't trust him, and I thought so too, but I kept all that deep down because I wasn't going to judge.
After around 6 weeks, he gave me his shop hoodie to wear to school, so I did of course, (and it smelled fantastic might I add). All the girls were telling me about his past flings with girls and shame on me for talking to him. I, of course, was upset at this and told him about everything that people told me. He said that it was nothing and I was stronger than them, and he only talked to 2 other girls this year. I believed it, like the stupid person I was.
These past couple of weeks, I've been camping every weekend, so we haven't been able to hang out during the time we were talking, yet we've been texting nonstop. Apparently, he didn't think it was enough. He texted me last Thursday, (in the morning before school), saying that he was sorry but he didn't think it was going to work out since we never see each other and he was having family problems. I replied basically saying that I wasn't going to be camping for much longer and that maybe a relationship will help him get his mind off of the family problems, yet he didn't want to listen and all he said was that he was sorry, he hoped I could forgive him, and he still had a lot of feelings for me.
Well apparently that was all a lie. That same day, before school started, he was walking around with a girl he used to talk to before me, then it happened again the next day, (Friday). I was so fed up with it, that I texted him this long paragraph saying that I was sorry I wasn't good enough, and he should have just told me he didn't want me instead of lying straight to my face. He read it, but never replied. So now, I have to give his hoodie back since I still have it, and I don't know what to do. I feel like either A. Burning it B. Leaving it in the middle of the hallway or, C. Staining it and then giving it back to him.
But apparently, my friend just told me this, he was going to ask me out the day that he said he didn't want to talk anymore. He was texting my friend Kim, two days before, (Tuesday), saying he was going to ask me out tomorrow, (Wednesday), when we were walking around together in the morning. We did walk around, and he gave me a hug and everything, but he didn't ask me out. So he told my friend that he was going to do it tomorrow, (Thursday). Well apparently not because I am single and now I am still crying. He's stupid for doing this entire thing and losing what could have been great, his new girl toy is stupid for going after him, and I'm especially stupid for not believing that he was a player and not staying away.
If you had the time to read this, thank you for powering through my long and boring vent, but I just had to get it out. I don't know what to do anymore...
P.S- The guy that I used to talk to before Damyian, (Tyler), texted me the same day that Damyian said he didn't want to talk anymore, saying that he still cared about me, (not in that way), and he never stopped caring. I used to really like him, but then he kind of became obsessive and he wouldn't stop trying to text me and he isn't that great at keeping up a conversation, so I basically lost my feelings for him, and we haven't talked since. Well he's been really sweet and caring about this whole situation and whenever he knew I was crying about it he would call me and just talk to me to get my mind off of the situation, and I don't know what to think anymore. My best friend, Maegan, says that we'd still be really cute if we made it work.
Any advice guys?
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