Girlfriend's Best Friend
CHAPTER 48
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I couldn’t even
say anything—I didn’t know how to explain myself,
or how I’d get out of this—I couldn’t get out of this. I was wrong, I
completely f.ucked up, and I knew it. All of the sh.i.t I was
about to get was completely deserved, and it was entirely my
fault. I just never prepared myself in the hopes that this
moment would never actually happen.
“Oh my God, Kel!” Brooke immediately started crying
too. Whether it was because she truly felt bad or because she
knew she caught, I would never know. But now everything was
gone.
Kelli ran out and Brooke followed after her. That was the first
problem—I should have been the one going after
Kelli. Not Brooke.
I sat there, debating on whether or not I should go out there,
but I had no clue what to even do—this was it. This was
the moment that was bound to happen ever since I started things
with Brooke. My decision making was interrupted by the sound of
Brooke and Kelli screaming at each other outside on
Carter’s porch.
“You thought you were so much better than me because you
had a boyfriend—well now we’re the same!”
Brooke tried to convince her.
“What?? We’re supposed to be best friends and I
know that means we do a lot of the same things but that does
not include getting with the same guy! Brooke, that actually
makes sense to you? Of course it does, you’re f.ucking
crazy! That’s why you cut your own f.ucking face!”
Kelli yelled at her. That’s when all the other guys
looked at each other, sadness all over their faces from finding
out the secret behind Brooke’s scar.
“Did you know that that’s how she got it?”
Carter asked me. I nodded slowly. “How long were you
getting with Brooke for? I just can’t even believe you
cheated on Kelli, I thought—”
“Shut up, Carter! Stop being an a.sshole! Okay, I know
it’s wrong and I shouldn’t have done it!” I
yelled at him.
“So then why did you??” he yelled back.
“Because look at her! How the f.uck was I supposed to say
no to Brooke? She’s perfect, I’d be crazy not to
get with her when I had the chance! That chance just so
happened to come after I started dating Kelli. Of course I love
Kelli, it was just an impulse decision when I hooked up with
Brooke for the first time but once that happened, I
couldn’t stop! I’ve learned my f.ucking lesson, you
don’t have to try to point it out to me, Carter. I really
f.ucked up but you know what, now I know how to appreciate what
I have and how to actually love a girl, because now I’ve
ended up with no one.”
“That’s exactly what you said about Jade and Lacey,
yet look at the situation you’re in again,” Carter
spat. My friends gasped, said ‘oh, sh.i.t,’ turned
the other way, and had every possible reaction to the fact that
Carter brought up Jade and Lacey. I stood there, with nothing
else to say. That’s exactly what happened with Jade and
Lacey, except they weren’t best friends—they were
enemies. And I didn’t know which combination was
worse.
I couldn’t believe he brought that up—that was
probably the worst year of my life, with my family, my drug and
alcohol addiction, and a bunch of other sh.i.t piling up on top
of it. Jade and Lacey were the last people I wanted to hear
about. I continued standing there, staring at him until tears
started covering my eyes.
“Bro, I’m really sorry, I shouldn’t have said
that,” Carter quickly realized his mistake.
“Do you think I wanted to put two people through that
again? Do you think I wanted to put myself through
that again? Brooke’s going through a lot of sh.i.t that
you guys would never even expect. She needs someone to take
care of her, and I became that person. It wasn’t like
what happened with Jade and Lacey, I swear! I wasn’t just
playing both of them—I seriously liked both Kelli and
Brooke. But knowing what I put Jade through by cheating on her,
I still feel awful. And I didn’t even like her.
I think I love Kelli. Which makes this ten times
worse. I don’t know what to do guys.” I sat down
and put my head in my hands so they couldn’t see the few
tears I actually allowed to pass.
Carter sat down next to me and rubbed my back, trying to
console me, Brooke and Kelli’s screaming and fighting
making fabulous background noise. “I know you care about
both girls, so do all of us. They’re great people but you
know which girl you have to go after, right?”
“Of course I do,” I said. “I just
hope Kelli forgives me.”
