I'm in the mood to vent and I'd love if you guys would give
me some helpful advice.
So me and my best friend are no longer best friends. We got into
this huge argument this past week over something stupid but the
feelings that I've brushed off have kind of risen to the
surface and I ended up getting way more mad then I should
have.
So let me give you a recap of our frienship:
We have known each other since the third grade, but we became
really close friends last summer. From last summer up until this
past February, I went through a depression. My brother cut off all
connections to me and my family last summer. He was fresh out of
high school and he was tired of hearing everyone telling him what
to do, so he moved out and stopped talking to us. No calls, no
texts, no vistis. Nothing. He was the only person I could talk to.
The only person that I knew understood me. So when he broke things
off with the family, I started thinking everything was my fault.
That I was never good enough. From there, my depression just
spiraled deeper and deeper. But my best friend was always there for
me. She helped me get better and she was always there when I needed
someone to talk to. She couldn't, however, open up to me. She
would lie to me about being upset when I asked, but would post a
facebook status about it. Or she would wait until I caught her in
lies to actually tell me something. But it was never the
truth.
So, I felt like a lousy friend. I felt like maybe I did something
that made her not trust me. I just didn't know what. She has
some really tough family issues. My house was always available when
she couldn't stand being at home. My mom always payed for her
when we went out to eat or to the movies or whatever. I always made
time for her and made her feel like she belonged somewhere and
always had a friend. She just never did the same for me. She would
leave my house early in the morning and go to the beach with her
mom and other friends and not invite me. I don't mean to sound
like a clingy friend, but it'd be nice to feel like she wants
to hang out, right?
I just feel like our entire frienship was a huge lie and a waste of
time. Now she says she doesn't care about how I feel and
she's always making a sarcastic remark to me. It makes me hate
her, but I just don't understand what I did so wrong to get
trated like crap.