It's funny really. How much I try to fit in. All I want is people to like me for who I am. I just don't get it. I don't know why I have the desire to be liked. I don't like being alone. But that's all I am. Alone.
i have no friends.. no one likes me... everyone hates me... everyone wishes i was dead... so if i died today no one would care... not even my ex girlfriend... she doesnt give a sh*t anymore. shes done with me. she hates me. she dislikes me. she probably wishes i never walked into her life but guess what? i dont give a sh*t anymore. even though i still cry every night because i miss her.... because i miss the way she made me feel..... miss the way she would look at me.... i dont know what the fu*k im saying anymore.... my life is just terrible.. no friends, no one wants to hang out, no one wants to talk to me, i try to be a good friend but all i do is fail and i miss my ex girlfriend but she doesnt want my sorry a** anymore....she could never make up her da*n mind and she could never think straight... one minute she loves me and then the next its like "oh i have alot to think about.. it cant work" but then its like "im sorry for everything i miss" like really? what the fu*k? stop messing with my feelings and stop hurting me..but whatever.... no one will ever love me or care about me.. no one does so mabye if i died right now everyone will be happy...
Today someone asked me why I don't have many friends, and at first I had no clue how to answer it. The truth is when you are alone you only have to worry about one person; yourself. You don't have to worry if the person you think you can trust is the same person who talks crap about you when you aren't around. You never have to be the "third wheel". And most of all you don't have to worry that the person you have gotten so close to will walk out of your life, leaving you to pick up the shattered pieces.
SANDD* posted a quote
December 11, 2013 3:14pm UTC
There's so much i hold back.. How you guys always leave me fuc/ing out, How you treat me like sh//t, and think its ok. But some how i always crawl back to y'all A person can only take so fu//king much. Im done. Sincerly the girl who wont give in this time.
SANDD* posted a quote
December 11, 2013 3:06pm UTC
I wish I had a friend that lived near me, so when I'm sad I could go to his or her house, and them just hug me until I'm done crying. For me to be able to always go to their house and just be welcomed. But of course, everyone in my neighborhood hates me.